 | DerrtySlime | I wrote a story. I would appreciate comments if you read it.
The jell feeling above a woman’s tits is what he lived for. The shoes and the shirt were not mere things, but trophies of what a life lived under conformity brought. Things in college he would have wanted. Her nodding, and her long face, and those small teeth that creeped out of her mouth like a tectonic plate. These girls, maybe 20 of them were all fixed on the teacher, and in the corner was Brent having a fit of tourettes, fiddling uncontrollably, while looking down at his hands. Nobody seemed to care. Each one had their own way of trying to get his attention. He seemed aloof and played along, simultaneously enjoying the attention very much. He hoped it would have been like this in college.
The bell interrupted while Nicole was in the middle of conversation. All the girls stood up promptly, and one girl even closed Nicole’s book for her. It was chaotic for a few seconds and Nicole knew she lost him. They all said “Bye” to him, the bold ones by themselves and the shy ones in pairs of 2 or 3. They all stared in his eyes while smiling and waddling their hips, and fixed an irregularly long gaze on his eyes. Alyssa was the last one to leave, timing it perfectly.
Alyssa was still packing up her binder, and she did it very slowly. Double checking empty pouches. Feigning frustration when she couldn’t find what it was she was looking for.
“ So you’re getting the material alright?”
She felt relief. “ Yep.”
Silence.
They were standing 30 feet apart.
She walked, slowly to him.
They were both facing each other, in a perfectly straight line. She could triple jump and her legs would land perfectly between his crotch.
As she walked, each leg would wrap around in front of her, like a runway model, while staring into his eyes intently. Was she possessed?
He cleared his throat. He knew what was happening. He didn’t know what to do. After all, in college he thought if he was lucky it might be like this, but he thought it would never happen.
She stopped. As she was about to make her move…
He dropped his pants and said “Blow Me” in kind of this exhaustive tone.
It was one of those victories where you didn’t even break a sweat. “Is that it?”
She pretended to be appalled and ran out of the room. | | | | | I am giving up masturbation for a week.
on another note,
i walked over in the chilly cold wind to my friends house to play guitar. We're both beginners so it's cool. We got the tabs for CCR's "Bad Moon Rising" and started playing the first line. We started out "homogeneously awful", and by then end slided to "moderately atrocious". But seriously, by the end it went pretty good and i really like seeing improvement for hard work, even if it's only a slight improvement.
guitar is really challenging for me, i am not naturally talented and it is "hard". Playing music is something different for me. When you're a sports guy and you play in "rep" leagues your athletic ability usually translates well into other sports. You build upon a foundation.
"is the music the same way?"
I firmly believe that if there is a will there is a way.
Steve Martin was not a naturally talented comedian, but from age 18-21 he performed 4 or 5 times a day ,5 days a week.
With the absence of a draining habit, i hope to transfer all that extra energy onto other more positive things in my life. | | | | | So this is my life.
Today unfolded like a 37 year-old Japanese woman folding a dirty piece of paper into a oragami. It looked O.K, but underneath it was just sh*it.
I got out of the car, didn't feel particularly good and saw the same cute girl who i always see in the morning at my school. I was holding a glass plate with apple slices, and i remember slouching as i shuffled my bendy legs. Of course we didn't say anything to each other. Steve Martin thinks of his comedy like getting the audience tense, then holding that tension at the highest point and just letting the audience let it out during random parts of his set while never quite releasing it with a punch line. This was not like that at all. The whoopee cushion deflated a few weeks ago, and now theres just that smell of rotten cheese.
At the library i met up with Mark, then Thomas joined in the convo. it was fun. talking to these guys is easy and funny.
Then , in Politics, the teacher started talking about Darfur, and not knowing virtually anything about what was going on, i felt like i wanted to help. A picture of Craig Kilburger flashed in my brain, smiling. What a tool. Why would an activist smile? Knowing all the terrible things happening, how could this guy ever smile? I sense that this weakling of a man does all that **** for his own self, to be a celebrity, to inflate his ego, to get his picture taken of him smiling for the world to see, like it is a virtue or something. Just makes me feel so damn blue.
Well, anyways the movie about Darfur went on, the lights dimmed and I instantly fell asleep.
I skipped English to go to the mall. I had a test on "Heart Of Darkness", an utterly incomprehensible book for teenagers, or anyone who likes to be entertained. I have since known this book to be widely studies all across high school and university english classrooms.
I sat down besides some nice looking store , far away in the corner and opened up my notepad. Then i saw something, you see it everyday and it kind of shocks you a little bit, you know, that "glimpse into the future". There was this guy, 25 years old, reasonably good looking but clearly unwordly. He was talking like a standard adult, how one "should" talk. He made it sound soooooo imoprtant. You know what he was talking about? The front window of a store. Before he started blabbering on, he was inside the window, fixing the tiniest of things. The whole window was pretty much set up. Then he starts talking about this change like he's changing the world somehow. Like what he did has relevance to the world, and how his one little change made a difference. LOL . bro, get a life. I do not want to be like this when i get older. God damn how could you set your standards so low.
Then i wrote this sick ass screenplay. I will film it this week.
Then i went to fourth where we were to be in the next room, the AP History room ( as were just university level) MrL is probably the most animated , wacky, but intelligent and though provoking teachers there is. And he was in full force today. LOL oh man , his energy is really something. Then as were i nnew seats this hot girl sits beside me. But it was hard to talk to her or even behave normally around my friends because she was there. Then my friend who i dont like sits on the other end of me, and he is extremely selfish and i dont like him but hes funny sometimes. The whole class, between the teachers audaciousness, the hot girl that randomly sits beside me and my friend that i have to pretend to like just made the whole class very akward. Combined with the fact that i knew diddly squat what the teacher was talking about just compounded the akwardness.
The i went to the weight room. There were , for some reason, probably for God just to taunt me while im feeling ****ty, 3 hot girls in the gym. One girl that i went to prom with last year ( i didnt take
here , my friend did ) and 2 others that were hot. She said Hi to me as i walked in , but the music was absolutely blaring and i managed the fake smile and nod, then went on with my workout.
of course they stay there for like 45 minutes. just to taunt me. Fooling around with music, playing Aqua and ****.; On a normal day i would have striked up a conversation but today i had no dice. So i finished and left.
Then i came home and listened to Steve Martin's autobiography on CD. it was fantastic. | | | | | has come and gone. Hopefully you made the most of it.
So, today was the second day of my Goal Realization process. Yesterday i didn't do anything exceptional, other than follow my goals as i should. I took mum out to Bobby's ( an excellent eatery close to my house ) for breakfast/lunch ( brunch!)( as an aside i saw my childhood bully there. LOL he didn't really bully me but he was just mean and got into a few fights and was basically just a loud ******* to everyone. My buddy recently told me there's a video off him on YouTube where he recently kicked some guy in the face in a bar fight outside. I'll have to post that when i get it) I went to FutureShop and bought a charger + batteries for my new camera which is a relief because now I can take pictures and movies. I also worked out pretty hard here at home. I recently bought a bench press, and basically you can do a lot more than just bench press on it, and so i did that pretty hard and I'm happy I can get a decent sweat goin at home. That thing is going to be very useful in the winter when i DON'T have to wait outside for the bus at -10 degree weather.
With the rest of the $200 remaining on the gift card that i got from Pokerstars i decided to just buy a few things that i wanted. At one point i just couldn't help myself to take these media square things. Ultimately, i got the following:
The Godfather Complete Collection ( 5 DVD's ) $55 +tax
The Bourne Trilogy ( all 3 movies. i heard these were good and i haven't seen any of them )
Resevoir Dogs Remastered ( for like 12.99 so ya obv score there )
GoodWill Hunting and V for Vendetta for a combined $20
Queen Greatest hits and Classic Rock gold ( 2 cd's)
and i still had $27 left on my card.
I also organized my school binder and cleaned out my crummy ( literally ) bag.
And i read a little although not sure what exactly. i got like 5 books goin at the same time. Tommorow it should be less cluttered however. | | | | | HU is a good thing. it's pretty up and down, like the stock market, or your marks ( my report card comes with a graph. i run hot ) or a roller coaster. At least the winning part is a roller coaster. Losing at HU is like throwing up all over your girlfriend after a wimpy ass ride.
Furthermore, my marks in school are pretty good, although not yet immaculate. Last year they were abominable, which is why i am more or less repeating last year. My study habits have improved slighlty but not that much. I still have a ways to go to reach "Total Discipline". My goal is "Total Discipline".
I borrowed a lot of random cool stuff at the library today.
A road Less Travelled by Scott Peck, M.D
Awaken The Giant Within By Anthony ( Tony) robbins
CD's
Credence Clear Water Revival
N.E.R.D
The Band
Coldplay
ANd a sick ass " How to Play the Guitar" kit. It came in a briefcase which , imo, is totally conformist , which is aginst the rock n roll doctrine, however my image is less important now than it will be in the future.
sarge on | | | | | hello, future self.
how are you?
good, well and all that is synonymous with fulfillment
how did you get there?
How everybody else gets there. Hard work.
is that it?
Well, no. But in words, yes. You see, i have a feeling so intense, a hole so deep, a need so insatiable, a hunger so wretched and manly. Words do not do it justice.
let me reach out and touch you...
( and so the mystery begins ) | | | | I am privileged to live in THIS, today's ..modern...technological...option-rich...chaotic, world. Truly privileged.
privilege ( http://definr.com/privilege)
n 1: a special advantage or immunity or benefit not enjoyed by
all
Privilege radiates throughout my entire body and sends extremely positive and wonderful chemicals to my central nervous system. To all those pussies who read too many books and listen too carefully to professors, and try and find, almost to the point of inventiveness, the hidden meaning of life through these people i give you the cold cheek. If we mutually having a conversation, and you sprout this nonsense i will do one of two things.
1. Tear you to shreds
You may be seeking comfort in me. You may see me as a source to confide in, or a source that will just listen and remain objective. Whatever you see me as, it will be wrong. I will not be a nice person to you. I will rip the **** out of you because in that moment, i truly despise you and i must rid myself of this tension by ANAhliating you with Hulk-level rage. If we are talking in private, i will yell at you. if we are in public, i will still yell at you and may even push you. Ya, i will probably use some sort of force.
or,
2. I will walk away while you are in the middle of talking. Then, i will most likely look back and give you the finger.
Hopefully, this will cause you to change your behavior when you are in my company or you will avoid me altogether. Either of these is fine with me. After all, human beings, even mentally deficient ones, act to receive pleasure and avoid pain. ( interestingly, people will do more to avoid pain than to experience pleasure.)
Action, doing, living...
i'll leave the deliberation to the empty souls and brains who study philosophy. | | | | | is an astounding an remarkable resource.
and in today's society we just do not cherish or use this resource enough. If you are poor and you want to get rich or become smart, or ( gasp) move up in classes then you should be making your library your second home ( or your first home depending how poor you are!)
if you don't want to throw down 6 bucks for a new release, you can go to the library and rent Old School or Casablanca or 40 year old virgin. They all have these there. I know this because i have rented them all.
I have 47 items out right now. most of these are CD's. And again, just to break this common misconception that the library only holds "educational" type content, or conservative content. Some of the CD;s i have rented out are
50 Cent- Curtis
Eminem- The Slim Shady LP
Van Morrison- Astral Weejs
Jimi Hendrix- Martin Scorsese presents ( live )
U2- The best of 1980-2000
The White Striped- White Blood Cells
The Allman Brothers- Martin Scorsese presents ( live )
and the list goes on.
Books are another story. I prefer to buy books because i like to keep them and store them in a bookshelf cause it looks cool, so i can refer back to them whenever i feel like it and if i'm doing an essay or something i can use them and that the library in my city only allows you to take them out for 2 weeks and well frankly, it is often not enough time for me usually.
Furthermore, they don't always have new release books or many copies of certain titles. This usually makes me sad that i have to wait. However, it's not really a big deal because books are a great value and i like to keep them.
so there you go
Add value to yourself. | | | | | things that people expect me to do.
1. go to university or college and graduate
2. get a job after
3. My grandmother thinks im going to do great things with my life.
I dont care much about 1 or 2 but i just want to prove my grandmother right | | | | | |
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