Vitas just updated my leggo subscription so I can finally watch videos again, yay
Are there any videos from the past that I should definitely watch? I obv. can't watch all of them and the really old ones might even be kinda outdated because the games were different back then.

A few days ago I purchased "Broke" by Brandon Adams on Amazon, it arrived today. I was disappointed at first because it is super short, I read most of it while waiting for my food at the Italian restaurant I ate at today and then quickly finished it when I got home afterwards. The story is about 3 degenerate high stakes poker players and their swings, its entertaining but no must read.

Poker was ok, I played a couple of hours and watched a video of me playing where I noticed that I am autopiloting too much, I need to train myself to pay more attention at the tables - after all this is why I only 4-table in the first place.

I just noticed I should maybe come up with a little more creative blog titles lol. But I guess my blog is not that interesting anyways, its more of a journal to help me keep track of what I am doing. I hope I don't bore the few of you who actually read it to death.

I'm back home! yay!

Unfortunately I haven't been able to watch any videos because even though I have paid my subscription was not updated. I have contacted Vitas about it and I'm sure he will sort it out. The problem here is that for some reason leggo does not accept my credit card or paypal auto-subscription so I have to pay manually every month. No big deal though, I expect to rake enough this month to get free leggo from their rakeback promo.

I played an ok number of hands today but for some reason I didn't play very well today. lets hope tomorrow will be better.
While browsing 2+2 I came across a pokerstove calc that blew my mind:

Board: Jd 7d 8s 4s 3s

equity win tie pots won pots tied
Hand 0: 29.804% 29.80% 00.00% 76 0.00 { JTo }
Hand 1: 70.196% 70.20% 00.00% 179 0.00 { JJ, 88-77, AdQd, ATs-A9s, QTs, J8s, T9s, 87s, 65s }

equity win tie pots won pots tied
Hand 0: 17.241% 17.24% 00.00% 5 0.00 { AcAd }
Hand 1: 82.759% 82.76% 00.00% 24 0.00 { JJ, 88-77, AdQd, ATs-A9s, QTs, J8s, T9s, 87s, 65s }

wow. Having blockers is obviously nice but it looks like JT is almost twice as good as AA here. sicksick

Also I've had some interesting discussions on the forums and I'm learning a lot from it. great stuff.

come on, rebluff me one time!
Entraction, $0.10/$0.20 NL Hold'em Cash Game, 5 Players
LeggoPoker.com - Hand History Converter

CO: $20
Hero (BTN): $44.46
SB: $11.40
BB: $22.26
UTG: $20

Pre-Flop: 9 9 dealt to Hero (BTN)
2 folds, Hero raises to $0.57, SB folds, BB raises to $2.14, Hero calls $1.57

Flop: ($4.38) 9 Q Q (2 Players)
BB bets $2.60, Hero raises to $5.40, BB folds

I'm in the hospital right now, I have an inflammation of the throat that is potentially dangerous (could infect the heart) but not all that bad right now. Meh, at least I now have wifi. I'd like to use my one-time so they let me go tomorrow. This is a pretty bad start for my plans which is kinda frustrating but what am I complaining about, downswings were to be expected. I guess I will just use the time to watch some videos. Sauces NL50 vids are next, can't wait!

wow I had completely forgotten how mentally straining playing poker is. I played 1400 hands today which I am surprisingly happy about considering my plan is to average 2k a day. I guess that was to be expected after my long break from the grind. However, I am confident that I will be able to perform the planned 5 hours per day within a week - this is a matter of training after all and now my only commitment so time is not the issue, stamina is.

Results-wise I have done ok which I should not know considering the irrelevance of the sample size. I remember that looking at my results was always hugely detrimental for my mindset, regardless of my actual results. In HM that is no big issue, I just need to stay disciplined enough to not look at my sessions or graph tab. The Entraction software however shows my current balance in the lobby so I can't avoid to look at it :/ Well, at least it does not update automatically so if I don't click the refresh button it only tells me how good or bad I have done last session.

I have continued to participate in the forum and I am very happy about the quality of the average post in the forums, this is the total opposite of the 2+2 dump.


A little spew hand from yesterday:

Entraction, $0.10/$0.20 NL Hold'em Cash Game, 6 Players
LeggoPoker.com - Hand History Converter

CO: $20
Hero (BTN): $30.01
SB: $25.46
BB: $44.69
UTG: $33.13
MP: $20.65

Pre-Flop: K Q dealt to Hero (BTN)
UTG folds, MP raises to $0.70, CO calls $0.70, Hero calls $0.70, 2 folds

Flop: ($2.40) J 3 2 (3 Players)
MP bets $1.80, CO calls $1.80, Hero raises to $5.70, MP raises to $19.95 and is All-In, 2 folds

Results: $15.60 Pot
MP showed and WON $29.07 (+$22.67 NET)

Both villains are regs, the opener had a relatively wide openig range and 100% cbet over 100 hands. If these stats are not too far off I think this play is +EV (has to work 50%) because I think MP does not continue with anything worse than top pair or a good flush draw and CO folds almost his entire range because I think my hand looks very strong here. This is of course based on the assumption that COs range mainly consists of PPs (he has a low coldcall% over ~250 hands). Actually, now that I write about it I realize that this might just be a waste of chips, if he has to be capable of folding like AJ I could be in big trouble. My image also does not help, I usually don't make this kind of play but even though I play tag-ish my stats are bloated due to the fact that I minraise like 75% of buttons because nobody cares. The 26/23 part in the stats is usually overvalued by most people after all.


Wow what am I complaining about bad games:

Entraction, $0.10/$0.20 NL Hold'em Cash Game, 5 Players
LeggoPoker.com - Hand History Converter

CO: $8.65
Hero (BTN): $20.44
SB: $8.50
BB: $34.62
UTG: $9.70

Pre-Flop: K K dealt to Hero (BTN)
UTG calls $0.20, CO folds, Hero raises to $0.90, SB raises to $1.60, BB folds, UTG calls $1.40, Hero raises to $4.10, SB calls $2.50, UTG folds

Flop: ($10) Q 8 2 (2 Players)
SB checks, Hero checks

Turn: ($10) 3 (2 Players)
SB bets $1, Hero raises to $13, SB calls $3.40 and is All-In

River: ($18.80) 6 (2 Players - 1 is All-In)

Results: $18.80 Pot
Hero showed K K and WON $26.46 (+$17.96 NET)
SB showed 7 7 and LOST (-$8.40 NET)

Today I've had a bit of a slow start, didn't feel well so was not mentally capable of doing much work. I still watched 2 videos, participated in the forums and played 1 session of poker. Considering the circumstances I'm ok with that.

Game of Thrones is fucking awesome. The books this series is based on are excellent and even though I read them I greatly enjoyed the series - usually it does not work that way with books and movies.

My daily checklist:

- 4 sessions for a total of 2k hands playing 4 tables only
#no but I felt like crap so thats ok. The games have been terrible anyways. The NL20 games on Entraction seem to be kinda bad in general which is surprising considering its such small stakes and on a semi-small european network. Oh well, I'm having more fun with the regs this way
- 30-60 minutes on the treadmill
#going to do that now
- 2 meditation sessions
#check
#meditation is awesome. I find it hard to motivate myself to actually do it but afterwards I always feel better and its supposed to have great long-term effects on your brain.
- a complete review of one of the 4 sessions and the biggest pots played in all sessions
#didn't play yesterday so not possible
- read all threads in the leggo micro and small stakes forums and post some
#check
- watch every relevant new video, that will probably be about 4 hours every week
#check, I didn't like the new thac video at all btw
#joinmystacks first video is awesome though, everyone should watch it
- a walk in the park
#check, shitty weather so I had the park almost all for myself, I like that
- keep time at the screen to a minimum, I tend to waste time and not enjoy myself there
#I slacked a little here, I discovered that you can buy used private jets for as little as $2million lol (I'm talking about a luxorious one, not a 2 person Cessna)

Hi all!

First off, a little info about myself:

I'm a 24 year old from Germany, studying computer science at my local university. After finishing the german equivalent of high school 5 years ago I started to live my dream by becoming a professional poker player. I was playing NL200 with the occasional dabble NL400, making decent cash and striving towards big goals. Life was great. Then, after 1.5 good years I made a big mistake: I gave in to "common sense" and enrolled in college before continuing to play poker, I chose economics. Even though I find the topic in general highly interesting, the way it was designed at my university was insifferable for me. It was mainly tailored towards managers and presented in a very dull manner, basically you just had to memorize a shitload of stuff that is basically common sense (especially fort somebody who already learned to thing logically through poker) but in order to pass the exams you had to learn all the fancy names and exact definitions. No independent thinking required. Overall just a huge pain in the ass.

Long story short, I changed subjects and am now doing computer science which I like better, all of a sudden I have to actually use my brain. The problem now is that I still hate the way you have to learn stuff. Instead of sitting down and learning by reading books and doing work at my own pace I have to sit through mindboggingly dull lectures. I loathe sitting with a ton of ppl squeezed around me in a room and listen to somebody talk. I like learning but I hate university.

Now only recently I realized the main reason I want to quit for: Even though I enjoy learing about all that stuff I can absolutely not see myself work with it. Sitting in a cubicle all day and write programs for somebody else, having a normal average joe life? Hell no, I'd rather die. I will not start a family or anything of that sort so its not like I need a safe and steady income to provide for anyone. Why have I not thought of that earlier? I was just like "well, that stuff sounds kinda interesting and everyone should get a degree anyways." Pretty stupid considering I had already found something that I like doing and am decent at. I love games, I love being competitive, I love being on my own, getting challenged. The problem is that I have lost a lot of my poker skills and the biggest issue is my bankroll, it is down to ~500€ and I only have a few months of living expenses saved up. If I would lose that I could still get money from my parents but under the condition that I finish college which I don't want.

My big goal now is to get back to being a professional poker player, be successful, make lots of cash, travel again yada yada. My immediate short term goal is to get to a point where I can cover my living expenses (750€, yes life is cheap here). Double that so I can keep moving up and have some cushion, 1500€/Month would mean self sustainability. My starting point. More accurate: within two months I want to have 50BI for NL50 and the skills to make said 1.5k€. In this blog I will present my progress.

My daily routine will consist of (random order):

- 4 sessions for a total of 2k hands playing 4 tables only
- 30-60 minutes on the treadmill (and a body workout later, no exact pla for that yet)
- 2 meditation sessions
- a complete review of one of the 4 sessions and the biggest pots played in all sessions
- read all threads in the leggo micro and small stakes forums and post some
- watch every relevant new video, that will probably be about 4 hours every week
- a walk in the park
- keep time at the screen to a minimum, I tend to waste time and not enjoy myself there
- one day off every week

tl,dr: former poker pro, now hate life, want old life back and strive toward big goals.