I guess at 21 you start thinking about this shit.. who you are, what you stand for and what you want to do for the rest of your life to make a living. My situation is as follows - I work 40+ hours working at a music store where I make around $500 a week, I teach guitar privately where I make $30 per half hour and play poker where on average these days I’m making about $200-$300 a week depending on how much volume I put in.

I was speaking with an older gentlemen today that I met through work. He was asking me about what I do and what I want to do with the rest of my life. So I told him exactly what I stated in the first paragraph. At the time in my mind I’m thinking to myself .. “who the fuck says this IS what I do for a living you ignorant asshole.” Anyway .. he proceeds to say .. “Online poker? Thats not a very honorable way to make money.” Again I’m thinking.. okay now this guy defines the term “honorable.” Fuck him.

Anyway for some reason I let it get to me and I started thinking to myself .. “is what I do to make money honorable?” I mean who gives a shit.. you do what you gotta do to support yourself and the ones you love, right? Or do you do things that are “honorable?” Does this mean everyone needs to become a doctor, teacher, fire fighter, cop or join the military? Or is honor confined in your happiness?

I don’t know to be honest. The reason for posting this here is the considerations I’ve made to possibly play poker for my main source of income. I guess I’m still wondering what I want to do for the rest of life. I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately and I am just very unsure. I don’t know, I’ll figure it out I guess.

Be well

Mike