Maybe it was Fortunas excuse for the bloody poker mess I´ve been thru lately, when I got a call on Tue this week from a radiostaton, telling me I´ve been one of 25 lucky winners of two tickets for a private Maria Mena concert on Fri night. She´s only 22, but had quiet a lot of success across Scandinavia, Germany and Austria and for all of you who don´t know her, clicky!. At first glance not the most hetero sound in the world, but seriously, I´ve never heard such a great voice in my life.

One of my friends and fellow SSNL grinder was excited to join me, so we rented a car and drove down to Frankfurt. The concert was supposed to take place on 53rd floor of the Main Tower in FFM, 187m above the streets of the city which was the sickest location for live music I´ve been to. So we arrive in Frankfurt, staring at the huge buildings. Apparently, we´re living in a more rural area, where the church is usually the highest building across town, every time I´m in bigger cities with 50+ floors buildings I feel pretty donkish and how I am lucky that I didn´t get there with a pick up truck, listening to country music and wearing a farmers overall. We get to the location early enough to have a couple of drinks in the tower bar at 187m height. Chairs are standing right in front of the windows and I´m stoked by the view from there, thinking to myself "Thats why they take 9 euro for longdrinks". Around 10pm MM began to sing for a mind blowing 30 minutes. It was so amazing, to see this pretty girl singing with so much passion and emotions, having the citylights almost 200m below our feet. I guess we were totally 11 for those 30 minutes. The gig ended way to soon, we got to chat with her for a while and then headed back home. Good times.

Today I was all in twice, once with top set vs overpr+gutter and once with AA vs KK pre. Both times I sat here literally praying my hand would hold up. This is going to scare me.

I finished my last test for the semester and am now searching for classes to take the next semester. Since I´m not in a position, where I can hope for making a living from poker I think I got to get my **** together and work for my diploma. So far I managed to work way less than every other student I know and yet had more success than many I met, but the ability to absorb dumb market research or thermodynamics within a pretty short period of time has crippled my knowledge. I have heard enough of every single topic to score a B or C, but I dont feel like I would know anything. In order to finish my diploma I have to absolve at least 13 more weeks in an internship and when I think about what I could do and what jobs or projects I already should be qualified for I dont feel comfortable at all. I really want to spend the time as intern abroad and am now looking for an internship in scandinavia. Applications will be sent to Sweden, Norway, Finland and Iceland. Fingers crossed that I´ll get the opportunity to move there for a few months, I really really feel the urge to leave this town, this region and this country. It makes me sick, I hate looking out of my window and I hate a lot of people here. I mean, technically I dont feel hate for anybody, but I cant see them anymore.

The only moments when I dont feel uncomfortable with my location is when I´m on the trails and go mountainbiking. I went to another bikepark today with a teammate and we had some sick runs, owning a lot of people. I cant even describe the feeling when you´re actually seeing your line, looking thru the trail like Neo sees thru the matrix. Sucky thing in biking is, when there´s noone left to takeover you´re beginning to own yourself, so did I on my last ride. Slight left turn, a bit too fast, front wheel slips and jam, there I go. No injuries or anything, but I broke the shifter and rearbrake lever. A sport for the wealthy people^^

And finally, one of my favourite singers released a new album. Check it out, she´s awesome.

I am roughly breaking even for this month, according to HM 6 buy ins below expectation, not counting several two outer that were caught on more expensive streets vs my overpair or underset. This is the last time I´m posting a beat or complain about swinging down, if I´ll continue whining and *****ing about running bad here, I´m gonna pay the person to remind me $5 on stars.

Grabbed by Holdem Manager
NL Holdem $1(BB) IPoker Game#1191918836

Hero ($114)
BB ($226)
UTG ($110)
CO ($121)
BTN ($98)

Dealt to Hero KK

UTG raises to $4, fold, fold, Hero raises to $13, fold, call,

FLOP ($27) 34T

Hero bets $23, UTG raises to $97.50, Hero calls $74.50,

TURN ($222) 34T6



RIVER ($222) 34T69



Hero shows KK
(Flop 74.9%, Turn 18.2%)

UTG shows 64
(Flop 25.1%, Turn 81.8%)

UTG wins $219

Alright, so I got scammed for the first (and definetly last) time in my life. User Doni2488 is not a trustworthy person and you shouldn´t do any money transfer with him. I was desperately trying to get rid off $200 I had stuck on cake and he offered 220, so I took the risk. Meh, make fun of me, I definetly deserve it.

$0.5/$1 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com

Stacks:
UTG ($78.00)
UTG 1 ($103.10)
Hero ($100.00)
BTN ($111.00)
SB ($154.50)
BB ($207.05)

Pre-flop: ($1.50, 6 players) Hero is CO K K
1 fold, UTG 1 raises to $4, Hero calls $4, 1 fold, SB calls $3.50, 1 fold

Flop: K 9 2 ($13, 3 players)
SB checks, UTG 1 bets $10, Hero calls $10, SB folds

Turn: A ($33, 2 players)
UTG 1 bets $28, Hero raises to $86, UTG 1 calls $58

River: 7 ($205, 2 players)

Final Pot: $205
UTG 1 shows: A A

UTG 1 wins $202 ( won $102 )
Hero lost -$100.00
SB lost -$4.00


$0.5/$1 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com

Stacks:
UTG ($97.00)
UTG 1 ($92.85)
CO ($98.50)
BTN ($104.60)
SB ($105.40)
Hero ($111.00)

Pre-flop: ($1.50, 6 players) Hero is BB A K
4 folds, SB raises to $3, Hero raises to $10, SB raises to $29, Hero raises to $111, SB calls $76.40

Flop: Q T 5 ($216.40, 2 players)

Turn: 8 ($216.40, 2 players)

River: 2 ($216.40, 2 players)

Final Pot: $216.40
SB shows: 7 7

SB wins $207.80 ( won $102.40 )
Hero wins $5.60 ( lost -$105.40 )


Both hands happened within few minutes vs the same villian. I had to quit my session, but not before I monkeyed off another stack. Obv I have a tilt problem and thats whats blocking my progress for the most part.

Today I went for a walk, listening to the notwist. I came to realize, that its not the beat themsalves whats phasing me, it´s more complicated. I can handle the occassional two outer, not a big deal when I´m losing a couple of flips in a row. I mean, I´ve been running awful lately, but I´m smart enough to see where I´m running bad and where I´m playing bad, but until today I couldnt exactly identify whats pulling the trigger to put me on tilt. It´s not the beat, it´s the person beating me. OMG it´s the people.

Looking back at last night and the hands.

#1: Sucks to be me, but whatever. Maybe I´ll never play him again, but if I dont I´m gonna put a two outer on another guy one day.
#2: Actually I´m really happy with this hand. His equity sucks balls vs my range here and he didnt win any money off me. He won a pot and made a huge mistake.

Wheres my problem? Hard to explain, but I´ll try to write it down:

That guy is a bad player over whom I figure to have an edge. He took 2 buy ins off me. Sometimes my fried brain decides to imagine how that guy feels like he´s way better than me, now that he took my money. I can´t stand that, I´m not used to people making fun of me. I want to be better than everyone else at my tables (we all do) but I want everyone else to know that (good players dont do that). I am aware that there are a million players around better than me and its not a big deal if they actually ARE better. Guys who are not better but feel and act as if they was make me really mad.

For the next 10k hands I´m gonna set up my hud that way, that I cant see my opponents screennames and take the names out of the HM hud and see how it turns out.

Of course, this is probably some stupid drunk thought and you´re ahsking your head now. I´m gonna get back to this when I´m sober tomorrow.

Saying to myself: "EZ bet/fold" and still click that little call-button.

Grabbed by Holdem Manager
NL Holdem $1(BB) IPoker Game#1181834406

SB ($102)
Hero ($112)
CO ($99.15)
BTN ($243)

Dealt to Hero JJ

fold, BTN raises to $3.50, fold, call,

FLOP ($7.50) 64T

check, BTN bets $5, Hero calls $5,

TURN ($17.50) 64TT

Hero bets $12, BTN calls $12,

RIVER ($41.50) 64TT8

Hero bets $32, BTN raises to $222, Hero calls $59.60

...then I´ll finally be back on the grind and will have enough time I can dedicate to poker and sports. Semester break has been tough, beside the trip to france I´ve been working >6 days per week on average. I feel burned out and recognize how getting in less running kilometers, less time at the gym and of course less hands of poker makes me feel unhappy.

I´m counting the days until the semester starts again, fortunately I´m a fairly self-educating person who doesnt need to be in class all that much, I´m much more productive and effective when I´m learning all the stuff on my own. That way I´m having enough time during the semester to spend on studying and playing poker and thats what I should do, I´m almost breaking even for 20k hands now after catching a mean run of coolers.

This morning my internet didnt work and I believe that I missed out on a lesson with Matt, if you´re reading this: I´m sorry. I´m sharing the wireless with two housemates and the router is not located in my room, no way to fix it as long as my neighbour isn´t at home. I´m really considering getting my own internet connection.

Our group lesson last night went pretty well, although I was a bit tired and missed some details I still learned a lot. I felt halfway retarded at some point, when I wasn´t able to express all my thoughts in english, it kinda sucks to be the only person whos not speaking english as his first language, but I´m working on that. Overall it´s surprising how much my english skills have improved since I started playing poker, forums, blogs, videos and IM/skype conversations are poker and english exercises at the same time, which is awesome. I´m looking forward to the next session and am always down for sweats with other students of Matt, if you guys feel like talking some poker, discussing hands or sewating each other let me know and I´d be glad to learn from you.


One hand needs to be posted. Villians stats look fairly laggy around 33/28 or so over the 75 hands we´ve played that night, he plays 4 tables. My numbers are like 25/21 and we haven´t played a big hand together. I think preflop is fine, given his crappy LP range and I´m cbetting this flop almost always. On turn I figured his range to be composed of a lot of floating one pairs 77,88,TT,JJ plus AQ and 99 and the occassional AJ/T9/98.
$0.5/$1 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com

Stacks:
UTG ($189.05)
UTG 1 ($204.30)
CO ($124.25)
BTN ($136.15)
SB ($99.00)
Hero ($103.50)

Pre-flop: ($1.50, 6 players) Hero is BB 6 7
3 folds, BTN raises to $4, 1 fold, Hero raises to $13, BTN calls $9

Flop: 9 4 A ($26.50, 2 players)
Hero bets $21, BTN calls $21

Turn: 5 ($68.50, 2 players)
Hero bets $69.50, BTN calls $69.50

River: 4 ($207.50, 2 players)

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As ae said, there are days where u cant win a dime no matter what u do. several coolers were taken that I didnt mind, but nits tilt me, paying off nits tilts me more and losing a huge pot vs a stupid guy whos ***** enough to limp JJ but calls off a 130BB stack on a bare gutshot kills me. he didnt even shove, HE CALLED. hands like this make me wanna cut myself and vs nits like him it makes me hate life and the world and I wanna go golfing with little birds as balls and randomly shout at strangers in the city. Seriously, wtf did he think? I HAS GUTSHOT, I CALL! I´m emotional instabile atm and am very proud of myself that I quit playing for tonight. Going to the bar now, tilt management with dirty martini and tabletop soccer. Cheers

I have BB as 16/4 over 700

$0.5/$1 No Limit Holdem
5 players
Converted at weaktight.com

Stacks:
UTG ($114.50)
CO ($122.80)
Hero ($132.75)
SB ($193.95)
BB ($130.75)

Pre-flop: ($1.50, 5 players) Hero is BTN 3 3
2 folds, Hero raises to $3, 1 fold, BB raises to $11, Hero calls $8

Flop: Q 3 A ($22.50, 2 players)
BB bets $18, Hero raises to $121.75, BB calls $101.75

Turn: 4 ($264, 2 players)

River: T ($264, 2 players)

Final Pot: $264
BB shows: K J

Hero wins $2 ( lost -$130.75 )
BB wins $259 ( won $128.25 )

After having a sucky monday in poker I chose to sit out today and probably tomorrow to avoid tilty moves. I´m violating my 90-minutes-daily-rule, yet I´m sure it´s +ev. Instead I spent the time dirtjumping all alone on our local trail to practice one ****ing trick and finally I got it. Dude, life can be so easy. I really want to do some photoshopping to put together some nice sequencies of some jumps, but I can´t get a clean version of ps cs3 anywhere.