Im sittin here chillin in sunny California, not thinking to much about the storm i left behind in minneapolis. Feels pretty good to be home, and see my dad and my mom and especially my brother. Its my brothers first semester back from college and were bonding better than ever. Its wierd because when we were growing up we each had a ot of sports, school work, and a different friend base. Now that hes in college its like were mature enough to bond more and do more things together, which is something i think ive always subconciously wanted, when you grow up and deal with real world problems you realize how many fakes are out there and how hard it is to find a really good friend but family is forever and having strong bonds with them is what is going to get me through life relatively happy.

I have a few things planned while im here. First of all im seeing my dad for a few days and staying over at his place for christmas becAuse he doesnt really have anyone else while my mom will spend it with her new husband and new step son (who has my room since he moved into this house).

tangent: step brothers..... this is the first time ive had one and its probably the wierdest most awkward thing ever, mostly because we have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING IN COMMON. First ill describe mine, the kid grew up with just his dad for most of his life so he hasnt had the best structure of parenting, which might be why he never does really well in school. Hes into really heavy metal and stuff, hes one of those emo types that wears eyeliner and makeup. Its also really sad because this kid has tried to slit his wrists and overdose on painkillers, so on some level i feel really empathetic because i know where i would be without my mom. At the same time he makes no effort to chill or be friendly so i dont think im going to extend myself out there and risk he whole awkwardness thing because i cant really see the benefits of doing so. Anyone that has step brothers can maybe relate to me or maybe tell me if it would actually be beneficial to be the guys friend or something. The way i look at it is that i moved away from college and im never really going to want to be this guys friend in the future or get his advice so theres not even much of a point of being overly affable when im here, i just dont talk to him and hes never really said anything (guys a huge introvert). So i guess thats my observations about having a step brother, its really awkward for me and nobody that comes into my life is going to be more important than my own blood. On the flip side i come back here pretty rarely so its not like i have to deal wth it a lot, just some holidays.

Im also planning on going to Half Moon Bay, which is a small coastal town about 45 minutes south of San Francisco. This is the town where i spent my years until part way through high school, so i have a few friends that i was really really close with before i went to college. It should be really fun, when your a city slicker its aways prett fun and relaxing to go to the country side. It should be a really good time even though when you go off to college your morals and ethics change a little and you dont have all the same things in common, we sould still be able to kick it and have a good time talking about old times.

Im also want to get sharks tickets for the 23rd, im hoping anyways, because there so awesome. Anyone who really knows me how much like the sharks, ever since i was a little kid and now this year there on fire.

Also on winter break im coming out of my semi retired state of poker right now, I havent really put in many hands since november or the amount i wanted to anyway, been busy with trying to get god grades in school and focus on being a little bit more complete. It didnt help running bad to whenever i actually had the time to play, but im excited to play this break and one thing i notice is that after a hiatus i really enjoy the game. Hopefully soon i can get to the point where im playing 1000 or 1500 hands a day but well see about that.

Well I gotta go run some errands real quick and then probably dip to the beach because its such a nice day out. keep it real.

listening to: Charles Hamilton- brooklyn girl