Im going to keep this one short because i know that people only like to hear the good (or at least all the people i grew up with) and dont like to hear the bad. Those kind of people are all to common if you ask me but it seems sometimes no one wants to stick with you through low times, but will ride up through the the high times, i know everyone feels liek this sometimes. I havent played poker since last thursday because ive had a lot on my mind, and when im really distracted or upset i just dont play any poker. Im not going to go into much deatil here but im a real big family m an and one of the most loyal people i feel at least towards people who are my friends and especially my family members, i mean i know that i would take a bullet for my mother and probably my father and brother, and a few of my close friends. Anyways my parents got divorced right before i left for school so whatever big deal im already pretty much out of the house, and 2 later everything is finally settled and the whole process just left my mom and dad pretty much busto and my dad has made some bad financial decisions which has hampered his ability to retire and thats just ****ing sad, i just hope and pray that when im older i dont have to force myself to go to work when im probably to old to go, and these kind of things make me realize how lucky i am to some extent, but i just really miss my mom and dad because they for the most part supported me in the worst of times, like taking me to a million different doctors when some said i was retarded. I only had hearing disabilities and was lucky enough to be able to get covered and to have two people who believed in me. Its important to realize that famil is number 1, the thiong i love about my family and friends is that there is no deception and there is no crazy ups and downs, they love you and treat you relatively the same no matter what, like dogs. Basically when im going through times like this i just focus on other things, i have been going to ballys a lot lately and ju jitsu and mma classes with a couple friends of mine (highly recommend this by the way). Also ive been working on a ton of school reading and projects because i got two c +'s on my last two tests. Its early but i gotta get those grades up. I hope i get back to the poker table soon, but im not gunna force it eventhough im up about 8 k of the 30-40 i wanted to make this month, last couple times i loaded up some tables i would just be really pissed when i lost pots which means its time to get off the table and play when im thinking rationally.

sorry if this is to hard to read or not grammatically correct everywhere, or is to emo for everyone but i dont really care at this point in time right now