I've always had a special affinity for a bunch of ones in a row. I'm a weird guy, a little OCD but not really. Also, my address growing up was 1111. True story. Sometimes when I look at the clock, it's 11:11. I think of all the times that I've looked at the clock (assuming there are what, 1440 minutes in a day? don't quote me on that), it is 11:11 more than other times, even adjusting for waking hours (the fact that I'm awake at 11:11 much more often than at 5:55). I also like to think that I get KK against AA more than I get AA against KK.

I can't believe how long it's been since I wrote a blog. For some reason it took staying awake until 9AM to write something... I guess there are a few reasons for it. First, I don't like being in the public eye as much as I used to. When I first began blogging and making videos, I enjoyed it very much. The attention was great and I thought I had super interesting things going on in my life and poker career. I still do, sorta, but not really. I realize it's a little late to become anonymous again, but I really don't think the attention is necessary. Also, I frequently think of things throughout the day that I'd write in my blog-- but I don't have a computer by me, and I also have twitter. That means that some things get posted on twitter and some things don't even make it there, they just die in the depths of my imagination.. things I was going to write for the world to see, now gone forever.

At the moment I prefer to be a nobody. I'm spending my days keeping my mind active by reading, playing poker, and watching MMA. I'm keeping my body active by lifting, although I'm starting to gain some weight, I feel like it's majority fat with a little muscle thrown in. My goal is to be at 225/225/305 of 3x5 for bench/squats/deadlifts, and I'm somewhere around 205/205/245. I hope to achieve this goal by early spring (maybe end of March?) so that I can start to cut in time for my friend's wedding at the end of April. I'll probably cut and lift at a deficit into the summer. As long as we're on physical goals, I really need to start playing more basketball, I haven't played any since I got up to Toronto, it'll be awful to be terrible at basketball and out of shape.

If you're wondering about my feelings, although I can't imagine you are, I don't feel much. I read things, I hear things, I see things, I get a little angry, but ultimately feel like I can't do much. I have trouble caring what people think about me. It always feels nice to win and run good, but it feels much worse to lose and run bad. I don't care about the money, I just don't like the helplessness of not being able to win, of feeling like no bluff is going to work and every board runs out AIDS.

I don't want any of this blog to come off poorly, I am in a pretty good mood as a matter of fact... I think I'm just feeling like a blog is a little too masturbatory for me at the moment.

My hair is also very long, but I didn't trust Europeans to cut it and Canadians are almost Europeans so I'll probably just grow it out until I look like Fabio.

Cain JDS tomorrow.