Man, life's rough or something.

I constantly feel like I complain about things that the average person would not complain about at all. I hold myself to a higher standard for some things, I guess. In poker, for instance, it is very hard for me to satisfy myself.

August was an okay month. I was downswinging around the start of it, but a few days in I hit the run good switch and started banking. I am not sure what my final tally was, but it's impossible for me to figure it out because of all the pieces I swapped with people (took action and sold parts of action). In total, I'm down about $150k from this. I always have half myself at 200-400 and I have run pretty good, which makes me sad that I'm a BR nit and not a degen. I can think of a few players who are 'high stakes' people that always just ran astronomically hot to get there. Some people, even still, are on poker-career long heaters. I hope that these players realize what a gift they've been given. I've also lost a much more significant amount buying pieces of people in really good 1-2 and 2-4 games.

I realize that all of this is just variance, but it makes me very sad inside that I'm up like 150 or 200 this month, when I should or could be up two or three times that much.

Sigh.

All I can hope is that the games stay pretty good, as high stakes games have been going off slightly more than they usually do in the last week or two. I've also had some pretty good HU matches that I've been playing lately, only one against someone who I don't necessarily think I have an edge over, but sometimes I just like to multi table against someone so badly I'll play anyone. The others are just fantastic spots for me, and if I can run a little bit better than I'm accustomed to, I like to think I can grind nice profits or something. Also, I've been cashing out kind of a lot lately, and I'm top heavy on FTP. I think the answer is just that I should stop being so lazy and get my ID approved for a wire transfer from FTP, but I could still use a little Stars money. I'd like to move about 100k from FTP to Stars, so if you know anyone with a little extra on Stars let me know.

I've been doing some work on the Memoirs series and I think it'll be done, and the website up, within two weeks. I'm not going to be making any promises, but I just wanted to pass the general knowledge along so that if I forget to get a PM, you can reference this blog paragraph. My sidekick Chewy has been sort of busy doing some tournament circuit stuff, so with him MIA at times, we've had to push back some stuff for the audio files. I'm also have some website work done, which will be super simple but allow me to protect the files and have my students get access to them. In that same vein, I've been getting PMs and requests for coaching. At the moment everything is pretty hectic with school and stuff, so I don't have too much drive to coach. However, I'll continue doing sparing sessions with the few students that I have now and if you PM me and get lucky I might feel like taking you on if I have some time in the near future.

I just started the whole school thing back up again, with very mixed feelings. I'm just very lazy and unmotivated, but at the same time I think it'll provide me with the structure that I really need. I'd feel so worthless if I didn't go to school, and I'm renting out a room in a house on campus for the sole purpose of keeping me near campus and motivated to go to school, especially in the winter. It is also nice that I've got a place closer to my GFs place, etc. I think once I settle in I will at least somewhat enjoy these philosophy classes- it's very important that I start everything off on the right foot and do at least some of the reading for my classes on Tuesday!

On Friday we went to a comedy club. I sometimes forget how much I like seeing a really good standup comic. We saw Geoff Brown who was completely ridiculous. I def recommend going and supporting your local comedy club, there's just nothing like being there. I think only once or twice have I gotten a mediocre performance in a dozen+ trips.

I think I complain way more than I should, I've got kind of a lot of poker related work to do tomorrow, and then I'm gonna spend the night with my GF doing nothing, sleep late, do nothing tomorrow, and maybe do a little reading and try to go to all of my classes on Tuesday.

Sick life plan!

Be good.