Hopefully no one ever reads this thing because I expect it to be boring as **** and completely uninteresting to anyone. Anyway, I don't really have the natural inclination to share trivial events in my poker career with people, I'm just forcing myself to do this because my play and focus has slipped dramatically in the past two weeks or so and it'll help me keep me accountable.

Last month I had my best month ever, something like 80/20 2/4 and 3/6. Totally exceeded any reasonable expectations I had. (Another thing which will render this blog virtually unreadable is that I don't plan to lay out my long term results or put up any flashy graphs, just don't see how any good can come of it.) It seems pretty common for poker players to have really ****ty months following really good ones, so naturally June is sucking balls. So far I'm down roughly ten buy-ins at 2/4 and up one at 3/6, rapidly approaching the 30k hand mark. So what the **** went wrong you ask?

Well part of it is just running bad for sure. My W$SD over this sample has been way below where it's supposed to be, and it certainly feels like I'm running pretty bad. But I've been reviewing my sessions and truthfully I'm just playing like crap, like really, embarrassingly bad at times. Running good last month has made me way overconfident and I've just been spewing uncontrollably. C/r bluffing way too much, as a result of taking way too many flops OOP when I should be folding or 3betting. WAY too many FPSy spews where I'm just like, "he's repping such a narrow range, ALL IN !!!!" and bam he's got top two and I've got like 2% equity. Which of course doesn't do much to boost my aforementioned W$SD stat. I've basically just been putting myself into too many ridiculously marginal spots and overextending myself, and when you play that way against halfway competent opponents and run poorly it can't end well.

So for the rest of the month I've got to hunker down and play some solid, SEABEAST-style poker, just focus on doing the things I do well and stop rationalizing all kinds of ridiculously thin, probably -EV plays. I need to stop overthinking metagame and range balancing and all that ****, because 95% of the other regs are playing a million tables and aren't thinking like that at all. The truth is that while their forum posts would have you believe they have very elastic ranges and are capable of showing up with all kinds of crazy stuff, I can think of maybe five regs who have actually showed down evidence of this in all my time at midstakes. So I think for the first time in my career, I need to focus on playing more straightforward, which is sorta weird considering I started out as a nitty TAGfish, but I guess it's kind of a natural progression. I think I'll cut out a couple tables as well until I pull myself out of this so I can really focus on not doing anything stupid.

I want to be playing 5/10, or at least be comfortably rolled for it by my standards, by August. All I really have to do to get there is to achieve a halfway decent result for the next month in a half. So I just need to ****ing focus on not sucking, keep my fundamentals in order and that's it. GL to you all.