I really don't want to make this blog post. Especially after the last one, with it's grandiose "I'm going to take on the world, nothing's gonna stand in my way!" sort of tone.

Poker is kicking my ass. I'm pretty sure I'm running bad but I'm getting to a point where I doubt my own judgment. I have now played like 25k hands of 5/10 near breakeven, 30ish hands of 2/4 breakeven. I haven't had a session where I've won five buy-ins or more in over a month. So we all know what that means- less enthusiasm, less motivation to put in hands.

I've spent basically the first week of this month working very hard on my game. I have made certain resources available to me which I didn't have before, and I can say that these unnamed resources have improved my understanding of NLHE by a hell of a lot. So that's good.

But anyway, we all know that when we're struggling, oftentimes the best thing to do is take a break, come back fresh, whatever. I subscribe to that and I'm now on my third or fourth go-round I would say. I don't know if I've ever seen this talked about, but when you take a break, come back all fresh and hungry, and you get ***** slapped AGAIN, it leaves you even less motivated and less enthusiastic than you were before you took the break. At least that's how it works for me. And that's what keeps happening.

I work on my game, I watch videos, I take the time off. I come back ready for action and I just get humbled again and again. It hurts even more to tangibly know that I'm improving, and yet not seeing anything in terms of results.

I need something to break me out of this funk. So I think I'm going to start working on my HU game with a coach. I've had short periods of playing HU and I've always found it really fun. Unfortunately I tilt like a madman when things don't go well. But I'm certain that learning HU is in my best long term interests so what better time than now?

Anyway gl to you all.