... in honor of the rivered straight flush I stacked off to earlier. Just needed some kind of title for this.
So I think I more or less broke out of the rut I started this blog to get out of in this first place. At this point I'm winning a half decent amount on the month, and for the past couple days I feel like I've been playing much better. Took a shot at some 5/10 tables over the weekend and it went well over a meaningless sample. Surprisingly I didn't feel intimidated or outclassed at all. Which is not to say I don't think any 5/10 regs have an edge over me, I'm quite positive some of them do. But aside from sweating the big hands a little bit more usual, I was pleased to see that I was psychologically unaffected. So that was good and a nice confidence booster.
On the bad side, last night I played one of those terrible sessions where everything goes wrong in the course of like 45 minutes. Those are the absolute worst and tilt the **** out of me. Usually I'm very good about tilt and am pretty unflappable both in life and in poker, but for some reason getting coolered repeatedly in a short period of time sets me off on insano mode, screaming obscenities, punching my desk, and occasionally throwing random **** at the walls. Which I guess is better than open-shoving across eight tables but still, I wish I had better control of my emotions when this happens but it's just like another person takes over.
I was gonna write a little rumination on my psychological issues that don't involve tilt but honestly I'm about to pass out so that'll have to wait. So all in all a pretty pointless post, but I wanted to force myself to do another one before I get in the habit of not doing them and the whole thing falls by the wayside.