Hi all!

First off, a little info about myself:

I'm a 24 year old from Germany, studying computer science at my local university. After finishing the german equivalent of high school 5 years ago I started to live my dream by becoming a professional poker player. I was playing NL200 with the occasional dabble NL400, making decent cash and striving towards big goals. Life was great. Then, after 1.5 good years I made a big mistake: I gave in to "common sense" and enrolled in college before continuing to play poker, I chose economics. Even though I find the topic in general highly interesting, the way it was designed at my university was insifferable for me. It was mainly tailored towards managers and presented in a very dull manner, basically you just had to memorize a shitload of stuff that is basically common sense (especially fort somebody who already learned to thing logically through poker) but in order to pass the exams you had to learn all the fancy names and exact definitions. No independent thinking required. Overall just a huge pain in the ass.

Long story short, I changed subjects and am now doing computer science which I like better, all of a sudden I have to actually use my brain. The problem now is that I still hate the way you have to learn stuff. Instead of sitting down and learning by reading books and doing work at my own pace I have to sit through mindboggingly dull lectures. I loathe sitting with a ton of ppl squeezed around me in a room and listen to somebody talk. I like learning but I hate university.

Now only recently I realized the main reason I want to quit for: Even though I enjoy learing about all that stuff I can absolutely not see myself work with it. Sitting in a cubicle all day and write programs for somebody else, having a normal average joe life? Hell no, I'd rather die. I will not start a family or anything of that sort so its not like I need a safe and steady income to provide for anyone. Why have I not thought of that earlier? I was just like "well, that stuff sounds kinda interesting and everyone should get a degree anyways." Pretty stupid considering I had already found something that I like doing and am decent at. I love games, I love being competitive, I love being on my own, getting challenged. The problem is that I have lost a lot of my poker skills and the biggest issue is my bankroll, it is down to ~500€ and I only have a few months of living expenses saved up. If I would lose that I could still get money from my parents but under the condition that I finish college which I don't want.

My big goal now is to get back to being a professional poker player, be successful, make lots of cash, travel again yada yada. My immediate short term goal is to get to a point where I can cover my living expenses (750€, yes life is cheap here). Double that so I can keep moving up and have some cushion, 1500€/Month would mean self sustainability. My starting point. More accurate: within two months I want to have 50BI for NL50 and the skills to make said 1.5k€. In this blog I will present my progress.

My daily routine will consist of (random order):

- 4 sessions for a total of 2k hands playing 4 tables only
- 30-60 minutes on the treadmill (and a body workout later, no exact pla for that yet)
- 2 meditation sessions
- a complete review of one of the 4 sessions and the biggest pots played in all sessions
- read all threads in the leggo micro and small stakes forums and post some
- watch every relevant new video, that will probably be about 4 hours every week
- a walk in the park
- keep time at the screen to a minimum, I tend to waste time and not enjoy myself there
- one day off every week

tl,dr: former poker pro, now hate life, want old life back and strive toward big goals.