I thought I was running bad this year before today.

This morning I wake up to the worst Facebook message I think I'll ever receive.

I keep in contact with four people from home, regularly, however today that number shrinks to three.

I think I'm doing ok, one benefit of losing infinite sums of money day in and day out, but man this feels familiar to this march (the worst month I've ever had, the ides of march, fuck shakespear)

I'm just super bummed, sad, depressed, just all the worst shit ever.

I'll be heading back to Philly tomorrow until the 6th.


This is the second person to die in my life, after my grandfather. It really sucks, I've been thinking about this day for a long time, as humans we surround ourselves with numerous people, and sometimes as I lay awake at night I dread the moment when we have to see them pass.

Anyway, hopefully it never happens to any of you, but try and brace yourself if/when the day comes.

Stay safe,

Ryan