Well december really didnt go to well. In my previous blog life was good and i had reached my christmas goal of getting my bankroll to $1k however my shot at 50nl ended poorly after a very unlucky multi table hu match against some dude which sent me on the most suicidal - almost unbelievable tilt in the world.
After my failed shot i had $900 in my account which i suppose overall wasnt bad but i had been up at like $1.3k, i guess i didnt take into account how fast you win/lose buyins at heads up. Heads up is still my favourite way to play NL texas holdem and i guess i just resented the fact i was no longer rolled for it.
So, after much frustration i moved back to 25nl. This is where it all went pear shaped, i quite obviously was not in the +EV state of mind from the start and my stats showed it - i crushed 25nl when i was moving up albeit over a relatively small sample (30kish hands) with steady/maybe nitty stats of roughly 20/17 with 3bet of about 7%, these changed to about 27/25 with 3bet %10. To cut a long story short i lost about $600 tilting all the way - with ******** helping me i had about $500 in my account just before christmas and with it being the season of lack of money.... i had to withdraw to pay for presents for people (mostly my girlfriend because she embarassed me last year with her awesome efforts in the present department so i decided to buy her a swarovsky necklace and other shiny things).
The personal lessons i have learned from my experience are,
- never let poker become your main priority (my studies really suffered in december at uni and i have a shitload to catch up on in january. Also my constant complaining about poker was driving my girlfriend up the wall.)
- stay within your roll. After reaching my 1k roll goal early and then seeing it dissappear before my eyes i kept taking tiny potshots at 50nl stupidly whilst in a red fog of tilt, compounding the problem.
-dont 'rush' when your not playing your best. Alot of my losses came from rush - it allowed me to make more mistakes in a shorter period of time making me frustrated and more tilted.
-dont lie to yourself - just because i crushed 25nl at one point doesnt mean im a legend at the limit and i dont need to post hands [ uber foolishness on my part]
-your supposed to enjoy playing poker - i hated playing because i knew i was playing badly yet i kept going. Its a hobbie at the end of the day for most people!
In the end i withdrew $300 and left myself rolled for 10nl with $200.
Im currently on $250 and im due a $175 year end bonus which ill try and get in the first week of january before i start uni.
I know i can beat 10nl and 25nl, i just wish i was thinking this straight a month ago - hindsights a wonderful thing. For 2011 my goal is to continue to play +EV at 10/25nl for as long as possible and to post more hands. If i find myself at 1k again i will not be moving up until i have at least $1.3-4k in my roll and i wont play heads up until i have even more buyins than that.
I guess im just glad i still have a roll
All the best Leggo members, Happy new year!