October was a very busy month for me and poker. I cant remember how many live sessions i played, but there where many, and they where all very profitable. I booked 2 loosing sessions live for the month and at least 10 winning ones. I will say this again, live players suck.

I ended up playing in the WSOP Circuit Event #1 at the Horseshoe Casino in Hammond IN. I was amazed how big the field was. Over 1700 players for this event. I'm not a big tourny player, but friends in my local home game told me they would roll me 100% for the event for 50% of my action.


To start the tourney I was just steamrolling the table. We started with 10k in chips, blinds where 25/25 and it was a very good, slow blind increase for the first 6 hours which allowed for plenty of play early. I got as high as 35k in chips within the first 4 hours.

Then I remembered why I dont like donkaments. As the blinds and antes increased, my cash game skills became less of a factor since stacks sizes dictate how a hand plays more then post flop skills. There is just very little room to maneuver when the villain has 25bb's, no matter how much I had behind.

I got in a small argument, well more of a debate, with one of the guys at my table. He was the guy the new everything. And for the life of me I dont know why I even discussed this hand with him at the table.

Here is the short of it. Im a huge stack with 30k+ villain is around 14k.

I have T9s on the button. 1 opener, 1 caller I flat.

Flop is KJTr - Cool, Im done with the hand at this point since I hold 3rd pair no kicker with the sucker straight draw. Flop checks to me, i think about firing but there are just no good cards for me except a backdoor spade draw. I check.

Turn is the Th . Checks to me and I bet 4k into a pot of around 8k. UTG folds and MP c/r to 9k. Leaving about 4k behind. Now, to me this is a fold, flat out fold, this guy is never betting a smaller T, but my image is such that I could be bluffing. Plus the c/r size tells me that he wants me to shove.

Anyway, I ended up calling and loosing to a flopped set, turned FH like a dumbass. I berate myself a bit for being a dooshbag, but w/e, I fucked up and I knew it. So here begins the arguement where the guy who knows everything tells me the play on my part is fine. Maybe this is a situation where ICM comes into play, but I dont understand the concept of ICM. The bottom line is I beat nothing the would c/r me there and I should fold, but he doesn't understand that. Whatever.

I am sure I made a few other mistakes since I dont understand things in tourneys like ICM. But I ended up busting 790th out of the 1700+ field. I had fun playing my first large tourney, and I would probably do it again.

As for life, I just dont know wtf I am doing. It seems my life was revolving around poker to the extent that I have given up everything else. I dont do many of the things I used to enjoy. I have not went fishing since Labor Day, and before that I didnt fish much at all. SO WHY THE HELL DO I LIVE ON A LAKE !! I used to fish 3 times a week minimum.


I used to love driving or working on my car. It was a passion. I can remember driving everywhere, for no reason just to drive the car. Never turning on the radio because the rumble was music enough.



Now I might drive the car once a month at best. I have been thinking about doing a serious restoration to the engine compartment this winter. Hopefully I can get motivated.

On top of all of that, Im pretty burned out on poker. There is no spark anymore. Im not sure whats causing this. But in general I have no motivation to do anything. Yet I get bored so fast if im not doing something. LOL thats f'd up.

I'm just not sure what to do, but I have to find a way to get out of this rut because I feel like everyday is turning into a waste of life. I really need relight a passion.