Dear leggo, I had a sort of epiphany tonight, which I felt the need to somehow document, and share. My first thought was facebook, however there are simply too many words, and I also didn't feel as comfortable sharing my thoughts with people I knew so well out of sheer embarrassment. This is very ironic, that I felt uncomfortable sharing my thoughts with those closest to me, yet I decided to share them this a group of relative strangers. Fuck it!

I am a great fan of fantasy movies, where there is some kind of good vs evil war, Solomon Kane, Price of Persia, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Batman The Dark Night, etc. and after waching one tonight I kind of got lost in my own thoughts about the world, and life, and got into all kinds of philisophical shit.

My first thought was how boring modern life has become, how people can get excited about going to university, working their asses off for four years, only to be rewarded with a shitty 9-5 desk job, or some other random job they never thought they'd do. But in my negativity I wandered over another thought, that maybe this dullness was perhaps a source of peace and safety. Back in the days of Frodo and Gandalf, you could step out on your front door, and be killed by some mysterious creature, even 500 or so years ago, the average life expectancy was around a quarter or what it is today (these are extremely inaccurate figures, just of the top of a bro's head). So in between all the corruption, war, global warming, famine etc. there is some good going on in the world.

I am not a religious man, nor an atheist, I'm kind of undecided. At the beginning of our time, a man called Jesus Christ was killed for speaking his mind, and fighting for his beliefs (at least I think he was). Whether Jesus had healing powers or not, we now live in a world where things like this does not happen, people can speak their minds, believe what they want where ever they want, and fight all kinds of battles with society without the worry of prosecution or death. Which leads me too my next thought.

I may earn a gayboy badge here, but fuck it, I'm just going to roll with it. As I have previously stated I am not particularly religious, and the fact that science has disproved many stories from the bible, just makes me think that it's all a load of shit. However the lessons the bible aims to teach cannot be regarded as "a load of shit". In my opinion, time has taught us that too much anger, grief, greed, jealousy and evil has no place in this world, justice will be served! But it's the other side of the spectrum I feel allot of us have forgotten. Yes we are not evil, but at the same time, would you honestly consider yourself a good, honest person? Things as simple as treating others as we would like others to treat ourselves, love, kindness, purity, and honesty have been too easily disregarded, and perhaps the key to moving all of our lives in a positive direction. We should all show love where we can, and if we find any kind of love, we should fight to keep it as it is, because it may not be there forever. Anything in life that is worth living or dyeing for, will not come easy, and you have to fight like fuck to keep it alive.

What I think might be my final and closing thought, is a sort of reference from A BOOK WHICH MANY OF YOU MAY HAVE HEARD OF, SO IF ANYONE IS PLANNING ON READING ANY OF THE HARRY POTTER BOOKS FOR THE FIRST TIME, PLEASE LOOK AWAY.

In this particular story, for the first seven books Harry Potter continually questions the loyalty of Severus Snape, who is continually backed up by Albus Dumbledore, the smartest wizard of his time. The fact that Snape had a very suspicious past, and was apparently a spy for the good guys, did make for a very interesting debate as to which side he would inevitably choose. This conflict was in my opinion an extremely crucial part of the story and I believe that J. K. Rowling made by far the most +ev decision. One of those things you see dudes do in videos, you would never in a million years think to do it yourself, yet once you are aware of the line, you realize how it is by far the best play. So what happens is Snape kills Dumbledore at the end of the sixth book, only for stunned readers to find out that Snape was ordered to do this by Dumbledore himself as part of his own elaborate plan. The next question that needs answering (and the main focus of my point), is how could Dumbledore trust a man such as Snape, when it was clear the more +ev move for poor Severus, was to betray Dumbledore, in favor of the Dark Lord Voldermort? The answer is love (yes, ok, gay boy badge for Mark). As it turns out Severus loved Harry's mother Lilly and after Snape had lead Lilly to her death, swore to Dumbledore that he would do Dumbledore's bidding in order to make right his mistake.

Again, this long winded point leads to another Harry Potter related question, how could Dumbledore really, really trust Snape? Not because the man was a genius, but because he understood that love is the most powerful energy created my man, and there is no evil in the history of world cinema, or world history that could ever come close to this crazy little thing called love. It makes us laugh and it makes us cry, but I feel as a group of young dudes who come across a ton of money very quickly we should see past logic at times where logic is not needed and simply share and cherish any kind of love we have.

Anyone who has reached the end of this blog is a true champion, and I hope they have taken something (amusement if nothing else) from this blog. I fear I have come across as an over sensitive bull shitter, ready to burst out the closet, but for those who know me personally I think you will agree that I'm just a weird dude with some shit on his mind! Peace!