Into the Wild chronicles the revolt and ensuing cross country journey of a young adult who gives up everything in his life to hitchhike and live in the Alaskan wilderness. Over the course of his journey, the main character, played by Emile Hirsch, develops several life changing relationships, all while experiencing a series of trials and tribulations that push his will to the limit. If you're looking for an action thriller, this really isn't the film for you, as some parts were admittedly slow. That being said, i felt it was really well done and left me feeling inspired.
Reading Nicholak's most recent blog entries has had a similar effect. I've gone on quite a few adventures in my day, but nothing recent. Lately, my life has just been characterized by routine and stability. I pretty much do the same thing every day. Not to say that this is a bad thing, but I sort of get off on being challenged outside of my comfort zones. I'm an adrenaline junkie. My desire to feel alive trumps most everything else.
Starting January 1st, 2011, I am going to be doing quite a bit of traveling. Now while I have done the whole poker house thing and really enjoyed that, I think this time I'm looking for a slightly different experience. I want to travel alone, at least for a few months. Living in a poker house or whatever is fun, but it doesn't really push you outside of your comfort zone. Since you're living with your friends, it doesn't force you into making new relationships... I want to live in hostels and slum a little bit. I'm hoping to learn quite a bit about myself while traveling and I think the only way to do that is to not have a plan and to go by myself.
Alright moving on to poker, its been going terribly...
Not pretty results, but I haven't handled it well either. I have been a whiny little bitch over the last couple of months... I want to apologize to everyone on my aim list and especially those I talk to on a regular basis for my incessant whininess. If you have any sort of longevity in this game, these type of runs are inevitable. I'm sure my 100k breakeven is diminutive in the grand scheme of poker run bad. Since its inevitable, the only thing u can control is how u react it when it happens. I've done a pretty fucking terrible job so far in handling it, so I'll be doing a few specific things to make sure that changes.
My solution over the next few months is to really tune in on my emotional control. I no longer want my results to dictate my happiness. I'm not going to be happy if I continually stress about individual hands, individual sessions, bad weeks, or even bad months. If this means that I play 10k hands a month than so be it. This feeling of anger and frustration towards poker just isn't healthy. I've been playing poker for long enough where I shouldn't be this much of a results oriented n00b, constantly checking my hem/cashier when I'm running bad etc... I got some major work to do and I know its not going to be easy
Moving on, I have some fun stuff planned this month. I'm throwing my sister a big birthday party at the local aquatic center, for her and her friends. My mom couldn't afford to pay for a party this year, so being able to do this for her, is pretty meaningful to me. It's little things like this that make me happy that I play poker.
In other random musings, I'm almost done with season 4 of Weeds. Something about this show just does it for me. The acting and character development is great and I really enjoy the humor. After almost every episode, I leave with a huge grin on my face, something I can't say about most TV shows. Nancy Botwin <3
I'm also booked to go to Ann Arbor for the annual Michigan-Michigan State matchup which I'm really looking forward to this year. Michigan's QB, Denard Robinson, is one of the frontrunners for the Heisman, so it should be really fun to see him play in person and get "denarded" with toocrispy and company.
That's all for now. Until next time
