So the last few months have been pretty ****ty for me with a ton of personal stuff going on that just totally ****ed with my head and didnt allow me to play poker at all and when i did play i just felt like i was spewing money all over the place. Despite all of this i still managed to win something like 6k in september which considering i barely played 25k hands, and felt like i was on monkey tilt the entire time while playing, i consider a pretty decent accomplishment.

Finally though i got through pretty much all of my personal stuff and I officially have my girlfriend back now, and i think we're both a lot happier and looking forward to trying to make things work even with the long distance thing.

So basically i dont expect anyone to have gotten this far as no-one wants to read about some other guys emo life but im setting out some more goals for myself in the form of short-term and long-term to once again attempt to get my life back in balance as ive been a total waste of skin the last month or so.

Short-term goals:
- Submit my application to volunteer at the Lincoln County Humane Society (I have a lot of free time and love animals so i want to try something like this out and see if it results in any happiness ev)
- Go to my optometrist and get contacts (I have been putting this off for a really long time because i only wear my glasses for driving at night but my eyes are getting progressively worse and i hate wearing glasses so kind of a no brainer)
- Start exercising more (everyone says it so i might as well say it too)
- Not sure how familiar you all are with my blog but im going to go back to posting all of the hands i thought i played poorly. Last time i did this i went on an 18k heater at 3/6 so i figure it can only be for the best

Long-term goals:
'm really looking to become more "cultured" as one might say because i really think it will help mellow me out and make me a happier person. With that being said in the next year i want to
- Start learning to play the guitar again, i started briefly a couple years ago but kind of plateaued and thus gave it up, so looking to start again.
- Learn a new language, still not sure on wut yet, the easy way out would be to choose french because i'm already mildly fluid in it but ideally id like to just brush up on it and learn something like spanish or italian.
- Start cooking more, and experimenting with new foods and recipes. I love to cook but unfortunately living with a bunch of college students who eat nothing but chicken fingers and burgers doesnt exactly spur my creative side.
- And finally i want to buy a house and a car before the beginning of next years school semester. This is obviously a huge goal i want to work towards and something that seems unrealistic to even me at the moment but as they say shoot for the stars and you'll at least end up on the moon or something real cheesy like that.

So anyone who actually got through all of this i applaud you as it more for personal motivation than anything else. If anyone else is in a similar boat and really wants to change their life let me know and id be happy to chat and talk about possible ways to motivate each other despite how gay that might sound (girlfriend can vouch for me not batting for the other team i hope).

Now after this essay of a blog i better go as i have goals to achieve; so i wont make you read any longer but i am going to say that i expect big things out of myself in the coming months and i strongly believe you all should too, so stay tuned.

everyone take care and best of luck.