So for the last few months I have been tredding water, I have been grinding low buyin mtts off a very small roll, and having to cash out each month to pay my bills/mortgage thus effectively getting nowhere.
I havent been on the ball with my tenants, and basically trusted people who I thought were my friends who have really left me in the shit.
I also pretty much had to write off May and part of June because of exams, which isnt easy to do when you've got to make money.
Running particulary bad does make it easier to stop playing however.
I got 3 outed or worse in every comp I played last night, except the last one where I was short and shoved a gutshot from SB. I did however qualify to a E200 ECPT Vienna qualifer off E5 but you cant unreg from qualified comps on Ipoker.
I needed to cash out about £600 yesterday so the money would be in my account in time to pay the direct debits. So I load up my buddies list and theres 3 people I have decent notes on all on the same 200PLO table so I sit with $150. I grind down to $100 over half an hour or so after losing one pot and not finding one decent spot when this hand happens...
SB I actually play live with and is a rock but has started mixing his game up. The BTN limp combined with how tight I have been playing is a complusory raise. Who knows I may even pick up a dream flop with 69% equity...
IPoker, $1/$2 PL Omaha Cash Game, 5 Players
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Hand History Converter
SB: $84.02
Hero (BB): $99.63
UTG: $200
CO: $822.77
BTN: $279.98
Pre-Flop: 9

6

8

4

dealt to Hero (BB)
2 folds, BTN calls $2, SB calls $1,
Hero raises to $8, BTN calls $6, SB folds
Flop: ($18) 7

T

5

(2 Players)
Hero checks,
BTN bets $13.50,
Hero raises to $38,
BTN raises to $99, Hero calls $53.63 and is All-In
Turn: ($201.26) A

(2 Players - 1 is All-In)
River: ($201.26) 2

(2 Players - 1 is All-In)
Results: $201.26 Pot
Hero showed 9
6
8
4
and LOST (-$97.63 NET)
BTN showed 8
T
5
2
and WON $205.63 (+$106 NET)
This hand pretty much sums up how I have been running for the last 6months.
I have not played my A game consistently, and I have never cared about having beats, never.
But I keep losing the critical pots (live and online) when im a huge favorite and its really been niggling at me lately and causing me to feel very frustrated because I need the money, which makes me play less optimal poker and its gotten to the point where Im really doubting my abilities to have poker as a viable career.
I have been to the job centre to look for something

and looks like im going to have to work in telesales 10-6.30 5 days a week for the next 2 months. At which point I will be sorted as people move into the house in september and I make £500p/m profit and live rent free. Its going to be a huge shock to the system. Right now im almost reliant on two of the most unreliable fucks who owe me money to come through for me and cover whats left of the bills this month.
GL to you all ill be back after a very long 6-8weeks SIGH.