Im pretty drunk writing this.

I have three step sisters (all older) between them they have 5 kids. the youngest called me tonight to tell me that they have all had some tests and the other two have come back positve for having a defective/cancerous gene giving them an 80% chance of dying from breast cancer/60% of ovarian cancer. their mom died (from cancer) just before my mom and dad split up (+20yrs ago). my dad died from cancer 18months ago after a long battle with dirrerent forms of cancer. they are not blood related. none of them smoke or lead an unhealthy lifestyle. this is such bullshit.

the rest of this is insignificant.

the fire alarm in my house needs completely replacing to fix a fault as opposed to just having a new control panel which i found out this morning which'll cost several thousand more than expected.

i started my uni project today its due in 5weeks friday. I dont have enough time. and now i really dont give a fuck

i played poker last night and was winning 3K on a 1/2 game. I ended up 800 and have been slated A LOT today for not locking up and leaving. People who werent there have gone out of their way to ring me and give a piece of thier mind... I folded a lot more hands than I normally would... could have put it in with AJo for 4K preflop... i know im winning.. if i 4bet it all goes in.

If you are winning a large amount of money (to your financial situation, or even normal game) do YOU leave?

Do you leave if the other people who have money (with much larger bankrolls than you) are chasing their loses and playing badly b/c you are up such a large amount? or do you stay and put your money in when you are in front.

I STAY. and i play(albiet not full throttle). what do you do?

Pretty irrelivant compared to other shit right now but that was supposed to be the intention of this blog post and id like opinions on that.

no condolences necessary. at least they might be able to counteract it early.

cancer is a fucking cunt and i hope your loved ones never have it. good night