This Is quite long so bear with me. Hopefully ill be able to make some interesting posts and contribute some content to the site as I get into a lot of tricky spots, mainly b/c I cant fold preflop lol. I definately regard my self as a live player, although i did learn to play online many years (and deposits) ago. A few of my friends have become quite sucessful online yet I school them live and HU becasue they dont get my 'lines'. I think my thought process is one of my best assets as I have as I created it myself and never looked at a training video and played soilidly (time and volume not consistency) for about 4 years until I read a book. I had a big score in oct 07 and i wish Id looked around on 2P2 and used the content to help me crack online cash when the games were softer. Even reading blogs on here makes me feel like such an idiot. i.e clayton having a big cash and removing it from the poker community. what a legend lol. (At least I managed to get half mine into property.) Or most of you for grinding up rolls online whilst iv been wasting my time in casinos.
I am a student studing Psychology on the 2nd year of my course but im in my 5th year here.and I want to bring my mad skillz to the virtual felt. I figure im going to need a lot of help to actually become sucessful and get a balance in my life based on past experiences
At the moment I am unhappy with my lifestyle and have been for quite some while. All I have done for the last x years is 'play poker, sleep and drink' as my gf put it to me a few weeks ago.

Ive been reading blogs on here for about a year now but never really looked at the forums or videos and its taken me this long to start my own blog.
Hopefully regular posting will enable me to become less lazy as Its difficult to talk about swings ect to my family, as ill explain below.

After reading this back I was a bit unsure about including it all as it appears that I really am a joke. but whatever Im going to be brutally honest in this blog so I become accountable for my actions and hopefully spew a lot less.

So here goes................

Alls I have been doing is going round and round in robusto? circles (youll have to bear with me on some of the terminology as I have been prodominately a live player I feel ancient now at the age of 24!) But basically I have kept playing beyond my means and have started to become accountable for it. I wake up and Iv usually missed the day, along with all my lectures. This year is the first year that Iv actually started to do some uni(college) work and even now im doing the bare minimum. But im close to getting back towards a sense of normalitly which has eveded me for about 4 years. I think exercising and eating right is a big part of this. One of my reasons for starting this blog now is that Iv actually done some uni work and I hope to start to sort myself out by the end of the year so I can put down some goals after what will hopefully be a productive end to 2009.

My poker history is a coloured one. I was working in mcdonalds slaving over the grill (which was awesome at the time if not fustrating as hell sometimes) When I started arguing about poker being a game of luck. Id played 7 card stud for jokes in school and obviuolsy knew what 5 card draw was. My friend Ryan introduced me to texas holdem. I already had a pokerroom account and after a little play money action. Mabye one reload before I got bored of waiting for the 24hours to pass I lept into real money. Now most people say I deposited 50 bucks blah blah blah and never redeposited.
I DONT ROLL LIKE THAT! (lol then sigh)

I cant remember when my first actual deposit was, sometime around Oct 04. Unfotunately for me I was getting paid well (at least it seemed like it then) and had nothing to spend my money on. Drinks were ridicilouly cheap and going out 4 times a week still didnt get rid of my wages. I did spend my money on other intoxicants but my friends from work were a bit older than me and kept me well supplied for next to nothing. So my high disposable income made its way onto pokerroom fortnightly.
I lost thousands. I remeber reading the maximum I could cash out was like 12.6k meaning that was the total I had deposited.

Sept 05 Ive just turned 20 and enrol for university after a gap year of getting wrecked and spending the summer in america (VA) I create another pokerroom account head to the library one evening and deposit my £1k student loan into the account. I sit down on 5/10 and get it in on the turn after 3betting preflop with K2 (obviously clueless about what a 3bet was) thinking its my lucky day when the flop comes K64 6 x until he flips up KK. GG me. I remember that was a particularly long walk home (Iv had my fairshare of those since UGH!)
Undeterred as I transfered to a mcshack at uni I continue to leak my wages online. for the rest of the year.

Throughout 2006 I convince my parents to lend me the deposit for a house to help me get a property, as a FOAF got a house here and rented it out to ppl and it seemed like a better idea than spunking £3k in rent to some dodgey landlord every year.

We started going to the student poker society, but it was pretty awful so instead we started going round this guys house and playing drunken cashgames. He evetually lead us to the casino where we would sit with £20 on 1/1 and hope to holdup. The money in the casinos at this time was crazy.
It flew about if only been able play cards instead of AK and 66+ lol. Around this time I realise that my recall of the hand I play and witness is sick. I could remeber every betsize on every street and the junk that showed up in their holecards. My table image in the casino was/is ridicilous from about june06-oct07 whenever i was there i spent my time bluffing, showing it, bluffing again, showing again, giving a rubdown, bluffing, showing. I was hated by all of the regs and deservidly so, whos this cocky young punk showing everyone up. The main part of my game had allways been deception and everyone struggled to put me on a hand so they would fold. Nowadays I can sit and open shove with anyhand and someone will find 2 cards to call with. Its beautiful. .

So in Sept 06 I become a homeowner and rent it out with 5 of my mates.
Now my parents arent rich, I mean weve always lived in a nice house had 2 holidays a year but they always did it sensibly never OTT. They had sold their house to buy something smaller had already helped my sisters buy property.
I blow all my money repeatedily throught 06/07 academic year and come summer im broke with x ammount of student overdrafts maxed needing to do loads of fire regulation works on the house.
I spend that summer grinding live with 2 of my mates and we just about make enough money to pay for our various vices before my parents comedown to help me work on the house. My stepdad opens a bankstatement which uncovers a trail of casino and online transactions and they go fucking ape. fair enough considering. Then they discover iv maxed like £9k in overdrafts (fortunately these are interest free). Obviously our releationship changed that day and they are not keen on me playing poker. Im trying to convince them but its obviously always going to be an uphill struggle, and theyve been out of the country a lot and...