I'm done playing for the month. This month I put in nearly 100 hours of poker, which is totally unacceptable for a graduate student. Granted, the trimester started November 2nd, so I had a lot of time to play early in the month, but most of the hours have come in the last week or two. I've become really addicted to 6max, which I think is a good and bad thing. My biggest enemy has been myself. Typical session goes like this: start well, get kicked in the testicles by variance, and then kick myself in the testicles by playing like an idiot after said variance. I'm letting previous hands/results affect my play. I'm so damn spewy it's ridiculous. I know I'm playing against retards, but I bluff anyway as some sort of sick sadistic ritual. Playing badly makes me breakeven, which makes me just want to play more and more. It's like, "hey maybe I won't make massive mistakes for stacks this session." But then of course, I make a massive mistake, have a breakeven/losing session and then want to play more. I played pretty well the other night AND had some hands for once and made 16 buyins in about 1.5 hours. This game is so fucking absurd.

Plans

No more poker for November for sure. I might have to quit poker until holiday break December 17th. Lately I haven't been able to control my obsession with 6max and it's not healthy for school. As I mentioned in last blog, I pulled an all-nighter one tabling with a massive donk. Last night (Friday), I went to a local casino to check out the games. I played in a difficult (by live standards, but overall weak players) from 9:30pm-2:30am and then proceeded to come home and stay awake until 4am doing absolutely nothing. Keep in mind I'm used to being in bed by 10pm and rising by 7am. I need to get the sleep patterns back on schedule.

I'll probably end up playing a bit on the weekends b/c I'm a degenerate and I like making money, but am officially banning myself from poker Mon-Thurs during school for the rest of 2010. I've got a mountain of laundry to do and a ton of errands to do. I have neglected these things because I've been too obsessed with poker and have been lacking any sense of balance in my life.

I still don't know what to do as far as poker goes over holiday break from school. I'll probably end up playing both HU and 6max. I need to tighten up in both games. If somebody told me in 2006/2007 that I would become a retarded spew monkey LAGtard in 2010, I would have laughed in their face. I'm a giant nit at heart in both poker and the real world. I hate variance so much, yet I expose myself to increased amounts of it by playing like an idiot.

Hope everybody had a great Thanksgiving!

I think I'm gonna take my parents to a James Taylor concert for their Christmas present. He's an older solo artist for those of you who don't know him. I saw on the news that he was gonna be at the theater a couple blocks from my apartment, so I'll probably entertain the parents that weekend and hit up the concert with them.

Here's one of my favorite James Taylor songs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C3uaXCJcRrE