I always thought that the real, awesome, forever lasting kinda love starts of with 2 people being Romeo-and-Juliet-like in love. Not when someones is just hot or cute or smart or rich or w/e. But you know, pink glasses, butterflies, cannot eat nor sleep, wanna die together on the Titanic lolol idk whatever. Later when that crazy state of being wears of you are supposedly left with something stronger/powerfull/more beautifull on which I think you should be able to build a life together IF you are somewhat on the same level, IF ideas about where you want to go in life are similar to a certain degree, IF practical matters work out, IF that girl is at least a little hot. I always thought that that is how that shit works.

Problem is; it's very fkn hard to fall in love, how many times does one fall in love in his or her life? What are the odds that 2 people fall in crazy love with each other?! And then -and I guess that's the easy part at this point- everything needs to work out practically.

We end up cheating the shit out of my definition of love. We stick together in relationships as soon as we get along and find each other somewhat attractive on both a physical and rational level. I realize this sound quite alright, but there is no real feelings involved right? And it sounds kinda lame compared to the first alinea right? I am sure if you share big parts of life with someone you will end up caring and probably even loving. But man, it takes so much conscious effort. You are actually building something whereas otherwise its been built FOR you.

Maybe it's not all bad, I just wonder if the end feeling in my romento idea of love is different. Maybe it's just a different way to get to the same level of loving if you know what I mean. But at least in my pink glassed world I wouldn't have to wonder if she is the right person, wouldn't have to wonder if she's worth making sacrifices for, wouldn't have to wonder if I should be on the lookout for something better, wouldn't have to wonder if I fully cashed in on my EV. I wouldn't have to worry at all, cause love itself would have told me she's worth it..