things have been progressing along decently since the last entry. i feel that i did very well on my accounting exam, so its a burden off my chest. i have been neglecting school a bit lately, since i've been occupied with a variety of poker related things.

first off, i've recorded about 6 or 7 of my sessions. since getting my new computer i've felt the need to put it to good use, instead of having some super desktop that lets me play a lot of poker and watch a lot of porn, i could use it to actively improve my game by recording sessions and watching them over. so far i've picked up a few things that i do wrong. when i start off a session, my timing is great. i am a very very slow player and i like to make the table play at my pace. it helps me think through my decisions and also lets me judge their response time in regards to my actions. however it would seem that about 40 to 45 mins into my sessions, my timing gets all screwed up. sometimes even faster if im playing on speed tables. i really hate those speed tables, but the weirdest fish show up on them and i cant pass up some juicy tables even though i'll probably time out a few times. of course thats bad cause i time out and then start to get frustrated for timing out and the downward spiral starts there.

if i could describe my own form of tilt and make it so anyone reading this could understand. its like guitar hero. i hate the game to be honest, but well, anything you can bet on you cant really go too wrong with. anyways, while i have only played it a few times, i manage to start off really strong. it could be 150 or 200 notes in a row. but the moment i miss one note. everything will fall apart and i wont ever do one of those snap recoveries and proceed to string together another 150 string. poker is the same way. i'll be able to play what i consider 'perfect' poker for a certain period of time. yet the moment something goes wrong, whether its a small thing or a donkey play happens. its good game. atleast i realize this these days and can force myself to close down the session.

this is something i've struggled with for a long time, and it wasnt till recently that i was able to realize my faults.

today was like that, i stuck in a quick 40 min session where things went well. then i started to unclick autopost and think about dinner. i caught myself, staring at 9 tables. 9 very profitable tables. it felt like i was hating money by not playing more. sure i was up for the session, nothing went wrong. there was a spot i wasnt too happy with, but JJ vs KK aipf is kinda a whatever spot for me these days. the flop was 942r also so its not like i would have folded that flop either. but i almost wanted to force myself to play, just because the games were so profitable.

i stopped myself there.

and i shut down the tables.

there is no reason for me to FORCE myself to play. if i was going to keep my session going, i would have just grinded along. but the thought of food had invaded my mind. i was hungry. it was the correct choice to close down and go eat.

people around me talk about how the games just arent as good anymore and 'winrates' are lower nowadays. i disagree with this. i can open up a poker site, scan the tables and almost be sure to find profitable tables. its not a problem. why should i be putting so much pressure on myself. it doesnt make sense.

i had dinner, went out to smoke some cigars with a friend and shoot the ****. then i wandered over to the casino, threw some dice and happily lost a hundred dollars. i've always been one to resist the pit games during my casino days and i cant say that this is a good thing throwing dice again after swearing it off when i turned 19 (fwiw im almost 26 soon) but i guess we all need to just have a little fun and a hundo doesnt really hurt anyone.

etown is shipping me a gift. we each bought 30" monitors when they went on sale last month. 999 was a super sick price obviously. he cant use his because he has a imac, which is a total beat. so i will be buying his monitor from him and having a nice dual 30" monitors to play poker on. kinda excited about it. what to do with my dual 20" monitors now. ugh.

i have also finished my video that i'll be submitting to leggo. i sent it out to a few friends and they gave me a pretty good review. im used to public speaking a lot and totally feel it translates over into my commentary, i talk about a bunch of leaks that i see in most players games these days. i was kinda torn on whether to delve into a single tangent and explore it as much as possible but ended up going with a variety approach. i hope the guys at leggo like it. it'd be sick to win.

off to bed now, gotta grind some hands tomorrow.