so here our my results since my last blog. i only played 50nl, even though with my bankroll strategy, im allowed to play 100nl. my bankroll is now alittle under 800 euro. i had too go away for a few days,so im reasonably happy with the volume i put in. a good bit of it was 1 tabling hu and i usually only 4-6 table 6 max
i played a good bit of 50nl heads up. which is great. i mean you learn so much playing hu and you learn alot quicker, i think il try and play at least some hu every week. once you go back too 6max after hu, it seems so easy.
chasing a state of mind: i think too be really successful at poker or anything you have too really want it bad. when im in the zone and tuned in, i see beyond just the surface of people games and start too really understand there games. but too often times im not in this state
im just forcing my self to play. how much better who it be if there was no forcing and i was inspired to play and really enjoyed playing.
occasionally il be in this state but then all of a sudden....puffff....its gone. im back to a state of procrastinating, feeling unfulfilled, waiting/hoping to stumble upon this state again.
right now i feel motivate to take action and make things happen. how long will this last? will i wake up tomorrow feeling unmotivated?
for me this state is elusive, i can stumble upon it a couple of times a week, where i really want to play, improve and do my best and i enjoy it.
the only thing i feel inspired to do, right now is poker. maybe its time for me to really put all my self into this. if im gonna do it, why not be the best i can be. when im in the zone, enjoying playing, i feel happy/fulfilled, like this is what i should be doing
i think its important to have a goal in life, to feel fulfilled. it doesn't even matter want it is. set a target and go for it. for alot of guys it might be girls, that's all they want in life, for others it might be some video game. it doesn't matter what. that feeling of moving towards something and achieving it, wanting something and taking action to achieve it, deciding what you want and getting it.
ive had these moments like im having just now, before. where i feel inspired and make grandiose plans. about how im going to eat healthy , exercise and play x hours of poker everyday. then tomorrow comes and i go right back into my old crappy patterns of behavior.
i know what i want and how to get it, the path is right in front of me. i don't have to think about that.
all i have to do is take consistent action. it seems so simple on paper.
im going to try and concentrate on my state. this state of motivation, that im feeling right now. if i could consistently access this state of motivation, i think id be able to do the things i want to do.
im just going to try and focus clearly on what i want and stay with it no matter what.
hopefully i can translate theses words into some action
this guy is pretty cool. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BBcYG_J3O2Q