Over the years I've damaged a lot of things while playing poker. I've been through at least 3-4 mouses, a couple headsets, and punched a hole through the wall when i was living with my parents. All these were when I was just so pissed that yelling profanities just couldn't satisfy me anymore. At one point i got smart and got a few stress balls. I would have 3 of them lined up by me every session ready to squeeze or chuck across the room.

So today me and the roommates are playing COD and I started to suck it up. We've been playing the past week or so and I've been winning or a close second every time. I felt like I was getting so unlucky today, I would sit in a spot for a minute or so, then check the nearby window, turn back around and have someone shoot me from the spot i was just looking at. That would happen a lot... and eventually I couldn't take it anymore. It all starting piling on so I chucked my mouse across the room and threw my headset off which hit my monitor and did some damage. It's still ok, just a bit of discoloration which hopefully won't spread, but might.

I used to go through controllers like crazy when i was younger and played video games. I hold grudges against people I lose to playing even the simplest of games (scrabble, chess, checkers, connect four). The fact is I'm just super competitive in everything I do. The only way I've found to turn it off is if I go completely the opposite way and just not care about any outcome and clown around.

I'm not really sure what the point of this blog was, but I feel like since I break things doing activities aside from poker, then poker isn't that bad for me. I guess the real issue is why I'm so violent. Perhaps I need to see someone about that.... but then I'll prolly get pissed and throw a stress ball at them.

Things have been going well for me recently. Before i get to that i'll start w/ the shit that happened prior. At the start of the new year, I took a shot at 25nl and failed. Then I had a degen day and played 25nl rush losing a total of ~$275.... or well over half my roll. I was left with just over $200 in my account and was pretty devastated. Most of the day after I spent laying on my floor with my face first into the carpet.... i wish that was a joke . I decided to dust myself off and start playing again. I've been doing very well since then and have recovered a lil over half my losses. Still have a long way to go though.

In real life, my job got a shit ton easier about a week ago. I no longer have to drive the forklift, which means I can go back to almost 0 responsibility. No more staying later than everyone else against my will, no more driving around like a madman trying to get everything done, no more trying to figure out how to make 1.5 semi's full of crap fit in one semi. I'm at total peace now.... well let's not go that far, but I have very little stress from work now. Also, for the time being we've been working just 40 hr weeks so I've been able to get some rest and have time to play pokerz.

Today they handed out our vacation sheets for the year. Basically since there's so many ppl in the facility we have to plan most our vacation for the year ahead of time. It's kind of BS, but you can pocket a few days so it's not like you have to decide your entire year.... but still sucks balls b/c i never know exactly when the Leggo party and all that will be. It looks like this year I'm going to be stuck with the week of June 27-July 1 for Vegas. Was talking it over with ppl in my dept and for some reason everyone wants the week after or the week before which is bizarre. I could be a dick and take whatever i want cause i have seniority, but I think that week works best for me anyways, plus i don't like to screw ppl i work with.... except for that hot latina but that's different .

I was looking on orbitz and few other places for packages and so far not liking my options. I'd like to stay some place different, but it seems I can't get what i want. My original plan of getting a suite at Harrah's won't work cause i think they're booked already and just have normal rooms. Venitian, Bellagio, Palazzo, are all ridonkulously over priced so not going to do that. Even Mirage, Caesars, and all the other "reg" hotels seem like prices are jacked up. I might just end up staying at Signature again b/c it's only a couple hundred bucks more and much nicer than anywhere else I've stayed. It just seems kind of lame to stay at the same place as last year, and I didn't really like the surrounding area either. The hotel itself was excellent, but MGM Grand is meh, and it's a hike to get to Bellagio, Aria, and down that way. It's a bitch trying to get anywhere from there really.

So any suggestions or ppl staying in a house that want a cool micro grinder for a week feel free to leave a comment or pm me. I might just try in a few weeks again and see if prices drop a bit. Right now it seems like everything is super expensive. Everything looks almost the same price or more than when i looked last year for 9 nights, and i'm only looking for 6 nights this year. I guess I can wait it out a bit, i do have 5-6 mos. I'm just one of those ppl who likes to plan way ahead, and make sure I have everything good to go. Day to day stuff I don't like planning ahead, but when it comes to traveling I wanna book that shit! Cause i'm all jacked up!

So things are looking pretty good. I got my bonus coming in a month, and my tax return which should help out a lot. Hopefully I'll be able to pay off my car finally in a couple months. I say finally, but it's only been a lil over 3 yrs on a 6 yr loan, i've just been saying i was gonna pay it off for about a year now. That's bout all i got for now, if you made it through the whole thing thx for reading and gl at life/poker.

This year saw a lot of ups and downs for me. I went from 10nl to 100nl and back again. It kind of feels like I haven't accomplished anything because I'm playing the exact same limit I was at the beginning of the year. However, I feel like a lot of positive things have come about this year and I'm hoping to focus on those in 2011.

January 2010 I had my biggest downswing up to that point. I had lost about $800 or a lil over 30 bi's. February I had to reload my bankroll which was easy because I was still living at home. I mainly focused on studying and only played about 2k hands and winning ~5 bi's. March is when things started to heat up. Steel108 had contacted me about doing a coaching group with some fellow micro plrs. Most of the guys in the group I had worked with before so I was pretty excited going in. I mean it was free coaching from a guy who's crushing 400nl, no way I could say no to that.

The first few sessions of the Steel group I learned a shit ton. A lot of things i knew, but was not applying them properly. He challenged us to pay closer attention to our opponents and it seemed to be working. I can't remember exactly what my results were in March, but I know it was in the black. April was the first time I took a shot at 50nl, it didn't go so well. However, after reviewing hands with Marvin and having some sweats with other members of the group I eventually started crushing 50nl. In April and May I made somewhere around $1500 I think. My Hem database was lost when i converted to windows 7 so I don't have exact numbers, but my guesses are pretty close.

June was the last month of Steels coaching group and I was having the time of my life. June was truly the peak for me this year. I was starting to play 100nl, Vegas was coming up at the end of the month, things were going really well. Toward the middle of the month my shot taking went bad and I lost a ton at 100nl running super bad. I regrouped and was doing ok at 50nl again. Eventually Vegas came around and if you followed my blog at all you'd probably guess that it was the highlight of my year, which was expected. Getting to meet everyone and hang out was so cool. I'm really looking forward to next year.

Then after Vegas hit which is where my fall starts to occur. July I didn't play a lot, but lost a few hundred. August I signed up for classes at community college and planned on putting poker aside for the most part. Then I moved out of my parents house and wanted some extra money for living b/c I wasn't working any Overtime. So I had about $1400 in my FT account and decided to give 50nl another shot.

The next few months I proceeded to lose piles of money. The worst was in October when I played about 85k hands and lost somewhere around $1200. I was playing a lot of rush poker and not studying at all. I just thought i knew enough to win and that was good for me. Apparently I was wrong though, i think if I'm not actively reviewing hands and posting in the forums I start forgetting how to play.

That brings us to December. I haven't played much poker the last couple months. I think I've only had 2 days where I played more than 1k hands. For December I think I'm down a little bit, but nothing to fuss about. I've just been trying to recharge my batteries and hit the books.... and by books i mean videos and poker stove. I feel like I've forgotten how to play this game, I find myself just totally lost in spots that used to feel so automatic. So that's where I am today, trying to get back to my glory days of crushing 50nl and on the brink of breaking through to small stakes. Not really sure exactly how much I lost, all i know is I used to have over 2k in my bankroll and was cashing out, and now I have $426.

I've been on poker vacation this week. I'm planning to hit the ground running in 2011 though. My plan is to grind hard, and study harder. I've had a good time hanging out with friends and family the last couple months, but it's time to focus on making something of myself again. I know I can beat this game, it's just going to take some hard work. Work should slow down in the coming months (at least no weekends), so I should be able to put in some volume.

I've left a lot out of this blog, but I guess it summarizes my year pretty well. If you've read my previous blogs you'd know I'm usually pretty emo. I think it's good and bad, I may sound like a complaining, annoying bitch at times, but at the same time I'm never satisfied with where I'm at and want to keep moving forward. Like my main man Rocky says, it's not how hard you can hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.

It's been a good couple of days. Poker has been pretty much break even, slight winner over the last week or so. Work on Thursday there were a total of 3 ppl in the entire warehouse so it was pretty awesome. My boss came out and was like "well i'm mentally checked out already so let's just work through lunch and get out of here at noon." I was not expecting that lol.

Thursday night went drinking w/ a bunch of peeps, had an overnight visitor, just standard stuff. I got about one hour of sleep b/c my bed is super small. Was it worth it? Well yeah, but I could not stay awake for the life of me the next day. She didn't wake up til like 10am and i was up and about since 6am. After that I had to shower up, eat lunch and head to my parents for christmas so no time for a nap. I slammed about 6 mountain dew's throughout the day but they didn't seem to help much. The worst was the church service obv, luckily it was under 1 hour.

After heading back to my parents for dessert, I went home around 8:30. I was supposed to go watch It's a Wonderful Life w/ my bro, but i was too tired. I slept about 11hrs and feel freaky fresh now. Just been chilling and watching the Bull's game/enjoying my presents. I got a remote control helicopter from my bro Joe, which was awesome until it broke . It should be fixable.... i hope. Other than that i mostly just got chocolate and gift cards.

In about 2 hrs i head over to my grandparents for dinner and a small gift exchange. Poker's been kind of slow lately, I've just been enjoying time off and only playing enough to get my 50 ftp's for the day. Away from the table hasn't really happened lately, but looking to get back on track tonight. Tomorrow is the Bear's game which i have tickets for so it should be sweet. It's going to be about 20 degrees so it will kind of suck, but could def be colder so I'll take what i can get. This blog's a lil all over the place, but i don't feel like editing it so it is what it is.

Merry Christmas everyone!!! I'll likely do a long end of the year update for my next blog sometime this week. Til then, be safe and kick some donkey ass!

I just received the most painful haircut of my life from Great Clips. I normally go to a bit nicer place or have a (professional) friend do it, but had a coupon so figured I'd give it a try.... the fact this place had coupons maybe should've turned up some flags to begin with. All I really get is a buzz cut so I figured how bad could it be? It was torture. She dug in so hard with the razor at one point I actually thought I was bleeding. I have a scar on top of my head from when I was young which usually hurts a bit when people give me a haircut but nothing serious. With this chick I had to stop myself from screaming. The end result turned out ok, but I think it takes some effort to screw up a buzz.

Started looking at places to stay for Vegas next summer. Not committing or anything, but figured I'd play around a bit and price it out. I think I'm just going to do 1 week, bout 6 days this year. Last year I did 9 or 10 which was awesome, but then after looking at my credit card bill it wasn't as awesome. The extra few days of food and clowning around can add up quick. I really liked my room last year at the Signature, but hated the location on the strip and the hotel/casinos around there. I much prefer the one's down by Mirage, Bellagio etc. Just better restaurants, nicer shops, and I don't feel like I'm going to get raped walking around at night.

I really like the Venietian, but with a budget of around 2k that's basically all the monies right there. I looked at getting a suite at a junkier hotel and it was much cheaper. The executive suite at harrahs was 1200 for 6 nights plus airfare, and Venetian was 1700 for a regular room. So I'm thinking Harrah's would be a good bet. That would still give me plenty of cash for food, and the occasional $5 blackjack table trips. I doubt I'm going to play any live poker, it's very profitable, but i just can't be patient for more than 1-2 hrs and that's like 60 hands. Then I usually do something stupid out of boredom and lose a buy-in.

I'm looking forward to the trip. I might take another mini trip around February or March, not sure where to go. I might just go to Vegas cause it's what I know, and usually pretty cheap for just a couple of days. I just really wanna get away, I haven't done anything super fun/exciting in a while.

My re commitment to poker away from the tables is going smoothly so far. I guess it's only been a few days, but I've been eager to go over HH's and find spots I'm losing money. I had a session last night in which I think I tilted a bit, and I ended up down a BI. I still have to go over the HH's, but I know I'll find some mistakes for sure. It was one of those sessions where anytime I wanted to see a flop I'd get 3bet, or someone else would 3bet the original opener and I'd have to fold my marginal hand. Also,anytime I got a hand I never got action. Luckily I found one table w/ a donk buying in for 35bb's and shoving all in every other hand. Took a bunch off him before he quit, otherwise I woulda been down a couple bi's.

That's about all I have to say. I'm going to fire up another session in a bit and go over some hands. Then I'll probably watch Inception, have some dinner and think about bed. It was nice to have a day off today, and I'll have a couple short weeks coming up. Going to be spending some time with family, and the rest brushing up my poker skillz. See y'all round the forums!

If you've followed my blog lately you know I haven't been playing well or running well and thinking of giving up. After much thought, I realized I still really enjoy the game. Only thing is I don't like losing, so in order to fix that I'm going to have to do a lot more work away from the table and probably drop my hands/month to around 10k again.

I figure I'm going to still get my 50 ftp's for the day, usually takes only 30 min or so. Then I'm going to look at some hands in HEM and really dissect each one. I'm going to use poker stove and do equity calcs, and work on ranges. I'll do this for roughly 1hr, maybe only 45min, i'll have to see how tired I am. I think in a few weeks, work will slow up a bit, and my playing time and studying time will increase. I was talking with Matt last night and he said this is probably the best way to get better. So I'll give that a try and see how it goes. I might end up hiring a coach once work gets real slow around March (if it gets slow).

There's a few reasons I've decided to give it another go. One being that tensions are high in the household, so I don't like going out of my room unless I have to. This gives me much more time to dick around on the internet, or get better at poker. Reason two, is that poker has taken so much of my life the past few years that I don't think I can go back to normal. I'm sure I could after a while, but I'm not even sure I want to. I think the old me is dead and gone. Furthermore, the older I get, the more my friends and I will drift apart and I'll be all alone. Since getting a girl seems nearly impossible for me, poker is really all I'll have to keep me company.

I'm ready to kick some donkey ass now. When I was part of the Steel coaching group I was playing my A game on a consistent basis, cause i was in constant contact with intelligent minds, sharing HH, sweating etc. I think that, added obv with Marvins spectacular coaching, got me all the way to 100nl. Then the group ended and I stopped dissecting my hands, probably started running bad and lost a shit ton.

So that's what's going down. In other news, the Micro HU Tournament is underway, you can follow the action here. I won my first round somehow, much props to Cojo 24, he was a tough opponent and I def got lucky to win. I face Coachgp or Steel in rnd 2 so I'm going to need to run even hotter to stand a chance in that match. Much thanks to headstroman for setting it all up, and everyone who's participating, really a fun tournament. That's it for now, pz!

So my last blog made things seem a lot worse than they are i think. Yeah things kinda suck, but they could be a lot worse. I don't dislike poker, i dislike that i've poured a lot of work into it and still not getting results. I'm just not sure i have it in me anymore to put my nose to the grind (is that how the saying goes?) and fight through it. I still enjoy playing most of the time, just sucks to see my bankroll disappear.

Today my roommates had a huge fight right outside my door which was hilarious to listen to. They've both been bitching to me about each other, so it was funny to hear them confront each other. All that happened was roommate A's dog took a shit in the basement, so roommate B calmly said "hey, i think your dog took a dump in the basement", and A muttered "i think this is your dog's chewed up crap all over the place". B was like "what was that?" and the following ensued.

A "I'm tired of your dog chewing up everything all over the place and you not cleaning it up"

B "well maybe if you didn't leave your shit all over, she wouldn't chew on it"

they exchanged a few other words then,

A " and i know roommate C and robby are getting tired of paying for your womans 30min showers and all the other utilities she uses"

i was like "uh oh, now he brought me into the mix..... Lockdown it is"

B "she's the only one who cleans anything around here"

well that's just not true at all, she's a super bitch and I clean a lot... especially the crap here dog tears up all over. Anyways, continuing

more words about B's woman being awful from A

B "and i'm tired of being the only one who works on this house anymore"

i can't remember everything, but it was pretty epic. They kept saying "i don't mean to start anything, i just wish you would ______"

The whole time I was dying in my room while playing poker and looking for an apartment in case things got really ugly. I think it went on for about 15 solid min. They eventually seemed to calm down and when i went out later we all got along. I'm still waiting for the war to start up again though. It's gonna be awful if B confronts me about his woman cause I have nothing nice to say about her, and that will get ugly. I've just been quiet about it, cause it's cheaper to live here and we probably wouldn't be friends afterwards.

She's just terrible all around and not even that attractive. Like bang for a couple weeks attractive, but not bang for the rest of your life attractive. That'd be fine if she was nice, a good cook, or not a total bitch.... but she's a total bitch. The whole 30 min shower thing is not an exaggeration. I think Matt actually sweated me one time, and she was in the shower before, then i heard the water turn off and looked at the call time and it was over 30 min. I know women have a lot more to do, but come on 30min!!!! Oh and the real kicker is she lives 4 houses down. Go take a shower at your own Fn house! I could dedicate a whole blog post to why i hate this bitch, and it would probably be pretty funny, but I'll just leave you with that little glimpse. The stupid part is I don't even think B is happy when he's with her. She's super annoying too, but i digress.

On a happy note, my check engine light turned off... for now, so I'm not going to take it in. I didn't get anything accomplished today on my day off, but i did make an epic holiday card on behalf of Leggo. I'll be working pretty much non-stop til Christmas Eve now so I'll be pretty low key on the forums. Have a jolly week!

Haven't blogged in a while cause their's jut nothing good to blog about. I've been trying to hold out so i didn't sound like all i do is complain, but i guess that is all i do. I just drove my friend home and my check engine light came on. This probably tilts me more than anything b/c i take care of car very well. Now I have to go in tomorrow on my one day off in 3 weeks and see how much Hyundai wants to rape me for. I really don't have any other option, the car is under warranty so when that light goes on, i gotta take it in. I'd say "oh it's probably nothing", but after 24 yrs of living w/ myself i know it won't be that easy.

I've been working round the clock, 10-11 hr days and 8hr saturdays. They already asked us to come in next Sunday as well. I guess i'll have to in order to pay for my pos car that's less than 4 yrs old with 44k miles on it.

Poker is being a bitch as usual, and i haven't been playing that much. I'm not really sure what my future will be, i've been thinking of quitting for 5 months now, and so far haven't found a reason not to. Really the only thing keeping me going is i guess i still have this dream of making lots of money and being my own boss. I just really don't see that happening, and the last 5 months is making that more and more clear. I've already demoted it to a hobby, so now it just pisses me off some of the time and my regular life pisses me off the rest of the time.

This is not written after a bad day at the tables or anything, it's just how i truly feel. I was thinking the other day about when i was happiest with my life. Not the happiest "moment", but the happiest "era". I traced it back to right about 3 months before I found poker. I can remember specifically going to a party at my buddies house and seeing all my friends. I used to have at least 15 friends who i would hang out with on a regular basis and now it's down to 3... and i live with two of them. Sure some of it is ppl moving on and getting married or whatever, but i think it also has a lot to do with poker.

I was a much much different person before i started playing poker. I was never super social, but definitely made an effort to get out more. Now anytime I'm somewhere else I'm just wondering when I can go home, not always to play poker, but just to be away from ppl. I used to never say no to hanging out with friends, but over time i gradually replaced dinners, movies, and shenanigans with weekend grind sessions. I can actually remember it getting worse and worse. Slowly but surely i closed out all my relationships for a relationship with my computer.

I used to be a super patient person as well. I think that's probably why i did so well when i first started playing despite being terrible. I almost never tilted, i just didn't care. I could sit there for hrs and play one table having the time of my life. Now after experiencing all these up and downs and getting so wrapped up in the game, i get very angry very quickly. This might be b/c of other sources too, but i'm sure poker has played a role. I kind of envy ppl who are "casual" losing plrs. All they lose is money, and it feels like i've lost so much more.

I guess it's not all bad though. I've met some great ppl, especially on this site. I've had a lot of good times in Vegas, and been able to entertain myself when no one else would. I've also found a hobby that costs me next to nothing. Despite losing some, the amount of money I'd spend on a different hobby would be far greater.

For now I'm just gonna keep plugging away. I have the year end bonus coming up so I think I'll clear that and then see where I'm at. Perhaps I'd be better off just letting it all go and focusing on making friends, finding a Mrs. Robbyd, and maybe finishing school. In fact I'm almost certain I would be happier, the only problem is finding a lady, finding ppl that don't annoy me, and finding the will to sit through college. In all likely hood, i'll probably just keep grinding away and dreaming of better things.

sorry if this seemed like too much drama,
robbyd

First off, happy Thanksgiving! Here's how my day goes so far....

I wake up and have breakfast.... not bad so far. Then i start grinding thinking that it's triple points. I run like ass, not even gonna talk bout the hands cause they were ridonkulous. Lost 5 bi's and realized that triple points don't even start til noon, fml. So i go to the gym, beautiful girl there, obv has a boyfriend, this day is not going great. Then i come home fire up some tables, and about 20min in my cpu just crashes!!!! It's running super smooth now after disconnecting the second monitor and wasn't so much before so i'm pretty sure it's b/c my graphics card can't support two monitors, or something else with my cpu.

I've decided to just buy a new cpu, and HP has a sale going right now for black friday so i'll likely order it online tomorrow. I created a thread about all this already so if you're cpu savvy i'd really appreciate some feedback. My roommate just told me they might hold off selling the house for a bit, so i figure screw paying off the car, i'm buying my cpu now.

So anyways, that's been the crap i've dealt with already today. I did manage to win back a buyin in that session before my cpu crashed so that's looking on the bright side i guess. I feel the passion to grind again, hopefully that continues all wknd and moving forward. I have about 1.5 hrs before i leave for thanksgiving dinner which i'm going to create a playlist for the hour drive. Should be eating by 5pm and leave around 8 or 9 to get me back home to grind.

Tomorrow i'm going to the circus. Apparently my brother thinks this is a Christmas gift, to get his 24yr old brother tickets to the circus in Chicago, take 4-5 hrs out of my day to spend with my hyperactive nephews and clowns. Oh yeah, i have to chip in for gas and parking, thx bro great gift! It's whatever, i'm kind of curious to see how lame the circus is now. I mean after seeing cirque de sol and all that stuff that have some of the greatest performers in the world, Ringling bro's circus should be quite fun.

So yeah, that last paragraph sounded a lil bitter, but i'm not really bitter i just think it's a funny situation. Like next time just buy me socks or something ya know lol. I know he means well, and appreciate his effort. Rest of the wknd i should be pretty free. Looking to grind in some hands (likely at 10nl, maybe some 25nl), and just enjoy some time off.

Been a couple weeks since my last blog. I've been going to the gym nearly every weekday which is good. I had to move down to 10nl which is not good. I've been getting away from Rush poker lately though which is probably for the best.

I always get so caught up in getting in a lot of hands and getting bonuses, which is fine, but i end up losing focus and spewing tons of money in the process. Before I played rush i had a healthy bankroll for 50nl of about $1200, now i'm down under 500 and it tilts the hell out of me. I'm playing 10nl for the time being, and only 4 tables to try and regain some confidence. I've done nothing but lose the last two months so I need to rebuild again. Playing 4 regular tables has been super hard for me. I keep getting extremely bored, but i'm forcing myself to pay attn to my opponents and get reads. Over the last couple days it's worked really well. I've picked up a few betting tells on some ppl and if i ever play them again it's just like printing money. One guy, anytime he bet pot on the river it was always with air. I picked him off 3 or 4 times for a nice payday.

It's getting harder to drag myself to the gym lately. Work really drains me, and by the time i get home from the gym it's already 6pm.... and when you wake up at 4:55am, 6pm is getting late. After dinner and a shower it's usually around 7pm and i only have an hour or two before i pass out and start all over again. I've worked 3 Saturdays in a row now, plus roofing my parents house before that. I'm really looking forward to getting a couple days off for Thanksgiving. All i've felt like lately is sleeping and watching movies, which is fine i guess, but i think there's more to life. So I think having 4 days off (hoping they don't make me come in Saturday) should be a good fix to my situation. On top of that i have 1 vacation day to use, plus 2 days off for Christmas and 1 day for New Years. So even though this time of year is stressful at work, i do get a lot of time off which is nice.

My monitor is scheduled to show up day before Thanksgiving which is perfect timing. I'll have 4 days to grind and enjoy it before going back into the real world. I'm debating other toys i want for Black Friday. I've looked over a few ads and see some things i want but really don't need or would use a lot. Obviously a tv would be nice, but the one i have does pretty well. A blue ray player is tempting, but i can probably get that w/ FT points in a couple months, or less if i grind hard. I doubt my cpu would support triple monitors so I'm not gonna do that yet. Seems like I'll probably pass up the deals for one more year. I'm super close to paying off my car anyways, so it'd be nice to take care of that before i blow my money on something else.

I went to a comedy club a couple weeks back and had tons of fun. My roommate had free tickets to Congress theater in Chicago for a Thursday night. I had to work the next day, but really wanted to go out, and i'm glad i did. I don't get to the city much, and it's sad cause i live only 1.5 hrs away. The comics were hilarious and we got free tickets for the next show on 12/9. I'm pretty excited for it.

I've been starting to look at condos/apartments in Crystal Lake which is the next town over and is much better imo. It's also where my job is so it'd be nice to cut down commuting time. Right now it's about 30 min each way which isn't that bad, but could be better. There's also so many more restaurants and stores in Crystal Lake compared to Woodstock (where i live). I'm thinking next summer i'll be moving somewhere, and hopefully closer to work. Should have my car paid off no later than February, then i can save a bit of monies, and get the hell out of here. My one roommate (who i get along very well with) is talking bout buying another house and i may follow him. It's weird how you can be best friends with someone, but then you move in with them you start to despise being around them. That's kind of what happened with my other friend who lives here. I still like him and all, but his fiancée is a total bitch and he acts like a tard when she's around.

Seems like things are evening out for me for the time being. I was kind of on a downward spiral for a long time both in poker and real life. I think i finally hit rock bottom and am starting to pick myself up off the ground again. No guarantees though, i'm just hoping things are going to turn around. The holidays usually fill me up with hope again, so i should be ok. If you've read this far, i'm sorry if i bored you, and thanks for reading. I'm posting more on the forums and trying to get better at poker again, so i'll see you around.