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Well I found out today that I am keeping my job at Snap-on tools. I guess this is a good thing. They were moving us to Kenosha, WI from Crystal Lake, IL... Kenosha is about 1.5 hrs from my house and I told them I wouldn't be going if they went up there. Perhaps if I was some big executive or even made some decent cash, but i'm just a labor lackey at the bottom of the totem pole. Anyways, they found a position for me in Crystal Lake still which is nice. I was looking forward to some time off of work to focus on poker for several months and then go back to school in the spring if nothing panned out. However, a job these days is hard to come by and now I can save more money for when I do decide to go to school full time. Also, money would've been a lot tighter had I not found a job so I guess in the long run this is a +EV move.
I've been playing/studying poker very hard now for two months and have definitely seen some improvement. I'm still a break even player but I think that's a lil better than I was before and I also think I'm not too far away from crushing! I am a little frustrated with poker right now, you can reference previous blogs, cause I've just been falling in the same pattern of winning steadily and losing it all back quickly. I'm trying to work on some ways of fixing this problem and I think most of it has little to do with my actual game.
My game overall is solid, I'm sure, I know I have some leaks still but I've reviewed been sweated and had other ppl review my HH and it seems to be the general consensus that I play decent enough. I think the real problem lies in my lack of control when I run bad. If I run bad I generally spew and tilt, leading to an even larger downswing. I suppose I need to implement some rules to help control these downswings and prevent them from keeping me a break even player and make me a winner. I know also that I need to work on my game as well and will continue to do so.
I'm probably going to take a lil break from being a hardcore poker junkie b/c I've found my quality of life has plummeted. I seem to get depressed easily now and that's something I never used to do. I think if I go back to having poker just a big part of my life, instead of my whole life, this will also help limit my tilt b/c I seem to be much more happy when I only play 5-10hrs/week instead of 15+. Honestly if I wasn't working it would've been 60-70+.
Anyways, this is yet another long ass blog and sorry again if your reading this, but sometimes I can just type forever. I'm a lil under the weather right now and think i'm gonna watch some tv and go to bed. I wish everyone gl this weekend and I'll see you at the tables(but not as much).
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