just bought some bought myself a computer .

now im techno tard but i figured as i spend so much time at my computer i might aswell go nuts and buy somet decent . here is the mac pro spec


One 3.20GHz Quad-Core Intel Xe
8GB (4X2GB)
ATI Radeon HD 5770 1GB
1TB 7200-rpm Serial ATA 3Gb/s

One 18x SuperDrive
Magic Mouse..
Apple KB User's Guide-GBR
COUNTRY KIT.GBR
along with 2x Apple LED Cinema Display (27" flat panel)


now this is prob a dumb waste of money but i figure its better then spending it on slaaaaags.

had a few days off playin as i decided to deposit like 5bags online and managed to wipe it off.

will be back on it in the next few days though.


excersize has been awful but gettin to footy once a week is better then nothing i guess.

not been upto too much else just doing my bollox and gettin pissed as per. FUCK WCOOP cant remember my last cash


laters folks

well as ive played like 1800 mtts 181man plus and never won 1 it was about time i did.


won the 1r turbo. only got chump change for it but 2000 plus entrants its nice to finish at the top of one of these crazy things.

1400 bucks pays for the celebration strippers over the weekend i guess if i follow the usual degenrate pattern of my usual behaviour

anyways thought ide blog about mtt win number 1. hopefully wont have to wait another 5 years for another one time

well im just tired cant sleep and im sat here with the remains of a bucket of the colnoels finger licking chicken. im going to have to stop with the supersize buckets of chicken for one.


im in a rediculously good modd for no reason. ive been a bit blah of late just gettin thru the day. wednesday is by far my happienst day if i play football. something energizes me and makes me feel ten years younger even when the guys do shove me into the walls and basically bully me off the ball.

poker been the same old grindy grind been shipping a lot of t dollars so thats keeping me in buckets of chicken(not that kfc accepts t dollars maybe in the future) . sometimes my mates will tell u i blow hot and cold with them and i get paranoid about the lifestyle choice that is playin poker.
i feel that im not balancing other parts of my life very well sometimes and think about giving it all up .then reality sinks in and the realisation im not fit for society .

i was going to try tidy my facebook the other day and delete all traces of poker from facebook and leave facebook for family and skype for poker but this wasnt manageable due to a few different reasons so i started deleting people and then quickly had to start readding .thnakfully they all accepted and i wasnt left friendless.

last bit of the blog im going to talk about my poker friends. i still have lots of friends away from poker but they ever increasingly become a smaller group and less time dedictaed to them. now i feel bad but i just find myself consumed by poker and poker people for whatever reasons, i think its important to try keep a balance away from poker but i find a lot of the friends i have im overly interested in how there gettin on in poker. its not that im competeing with my poker friends but i like to know there all doin well i guess.

i guess what im gettin at here is that im a little worried that poker is a make belief world and i dont want to get old and have loads of friendships built around a card game because if i leave the game what am i left with?. i need more away from the tables maybe longer term. maybe im just worrying about silly things. one of my best friends i met thru poker and he is kinda loved up so i barely see him and i just worry maybe. a lot of teh guys in poker get younger and younger every year and me and my friend have been about forever and i guess i miss the day to day interaction with my poker better half lets say.




happy days all
grind hard and make monkeys

well today i have nothing positive to say . fuck u poker. ,fuck u ex gf, fuck u cunt who made me wait to gte into club and fuck u bradford city .


normally i try to be somewhat positive but today i feel like i hate the fuking game of poker. just swings my emotions beyond stretching point. im just a nit with emotions and dont want to share them(cause thats whats expected of us) no one wants to hear about complainers or winers. well thsi is my blog so fuck it. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKERTY FUCK FUCK. insuch a rut and poker isnt challenging me because im such a bankroll nit and i get frustarted at failed shots. life isnt stimulating because most muggles are fucking idiots. im just in a rut because im a fucking idiot. where does teh pain end? who teh fuck knows, now im know this blog isnt goingto make sense but then what the fuck did i ever write that did.


tomororo i wil read responses to this and il be more tilted at people taking it serious. its all bullshit.


thisis what poker does to u if your weak of mind fucks with u and spits u out . piece out guys,

Well the night starts with me been in my typical awkward self type of mood . For anyone who knows me they kinda realise i tend to be difficult and awkward for no perticular reason randomly.i say things often out of context of the conversation and what not.
so i was in good spirits in general and knocking back the smirnoff like a mad russian. the more i drank the more i drifted between the group of people who was assembled to be at selina's housewarming.
selina somehow managed to have a really sick group of northern poker players from the uk attend. i could name drop but the list would be too long to remember everyone.
so anyway i get crazy drunk . think i was overall nice to be around can never be too sure what pissd up guy im going to be. as things in my life at the minute are a little difficult its ussually a sign of that im going to be super difficult. but as i loved the peopel it was almost impossible for me to be too difficult .

anyway the night starst at the house party then to tiger tiger and this is where i manage to lose teh group of friends i was with. after this i remember very little. i woke up in hospital without my phone or wallet. :/ they told me they found me in the gutter . so i did one as soon as i had enough energy to walk away. running wasnt an option this time i barely had energy to stand up.

anyway let this be a lesson to u all. NEVER EVER DRINK . its not big and its not clever if u cant drink responsibly. and i really dont see the point in drinking responsibly seams so pointless.

as i havnt blogged for a while and i have not really done anything i wil just tell u how nice my dinner was today.

it was chicken in a wrap with fries.

well as im not involved in the wsop at all this year i still feel as if i have to watch how all my friends are doin. its rather addictive. a few of em through to day 2 but still miles to go. its teh big one and one day il be involved prehaps.


terrible day at the tables for me. horses are doin my bollox of late so gunner cut shot taking back

been playin lots of casino poker and its been a good week plus 7 or 8 buys ins. online im using an aggresive bankroll managment stratergy to move up teh stakes at the 18mans as quick as possible. never really played them too much but been running well at the lower stakes .

my plan was to play more on ipoker but i lost my bank card three weeks ago and not been able to deposit until i collect my new one from my flat . anyway blog done. boring life but willy smith about in leeeeeds tomoro so hopefully have a few drinks and forget about poker for teh day

well rubbish week i guess, ground hard at start of teh week then had a drinkin session midweek and dropped about a k playin mtts over last few days


there soooooo frustrating . just lose lose lose every fucking time..my record on pokerstars stands at 0/1750 in 181plus man mtts. think im about break even life time over the 1750games

gunner have the weekend off and splash around at the casino methinks.

tourneys have been so much softer to amass stacks with less decent regs and fewer american grinders. its a bit annoyin having no money to play them and no backer anymore.
1st backer went bust second backer was american and axed his horses on black friday 3rd backer wanted me to play on euro sites so i axed that deal kinda quickly.
guess il plod along with the sits for now but am always open to offers .

so not gone to vegas. decided ide of flown out to celebrate with mat frankland if he won anything as he showed some faith inmy game last year i would of loved to of been about to celebrate with him. as it happens he came home so i won't be attending this year.

i had a decent may winning some money on a stake on ipoker . fell out with the person whos company it was as he was really been a jerk about stuff after i won over about 6k for the month .
on a personal note i found the ipoker games incred and i will be playin much more on there over the coming months.

i been grinding loads of low stakes but had to have a forced week or so off when my computer needed some much needed maintainance.


so tryin to get some big long grind days in for the next few weeks to try pay for some shots at various mtts.

i found an interesting statistic that im on a 6500 downer at schedules mtt for buy ins between 1 and 50 dollars. its taken a long time to do that in and i hadnt really noticed because it was just a few hundo dollars at a time over sessons. does feel like forever ago since i final tabled an mtt though so



been watching the wsop updates constantly and been watching for peopel i know making deep runs.
two brits who i have spent a lil time with over the last 12 months both won wsop gold so thats really good for them. i dont really know either of them that well more friends of friends but i have enjoyed there company when there about. so wp mat and jake.

its a bit gloomy thinking that everyone is havinga ball in vegas and im stuck at home but tbh i have been really lazy with poker a big part of me feels like i don't deserve to be there.

ive been dropping money like crazy at my local cash game. not really doin too much wrong just dont seam to win a pot whatever i do . im guessing im on maybe 15 to 20 buyins down and it feels like i suck. really probly need to just nit it up win some pots .
deffo need to stop with some of the fucked up stuff ive started leaking at. done a few quid on gambling slots bj etc stuff i shouldnt and its not really enjoyable because its the wrong mindset to really be in (i dont seam to gamble low limits want to do my bollox chasing scores . its just an explosive mindset of been a gambler and yer after doin some today i decided to ship my friend some big uk live poker shots to atleast gamble higher in a positive expectation way..
i know deep down im a gambler but i like to bury that demon and keep him locked up. of late really been feeding the lil bastard .


i know i should blog more but it gets a bit depressing blogging about the same old shit.

really should be moving up stakes and cut out all the bull shit in my life. lifes been going well enjoyin it alot and i enjoy it more when im been involved in new experiences . the excessive drinking and stuff is just to escape sometimes and it takes me too long to recover.

a few friends going to newcastle for the ukipt so i wish them luck. me myself wil be doin what i am often doin smashing low stakes sits to grind it out.

i took a horse on to play sits and he on bit of a downswing so im going to have to give him a few hours on teamviewer make sure he playin correctly so i can get a return on the dollars ive stuck into him.


anyway guys gl with the wsop main any of u guys playin it. i wil be playin the odd satterlite before it kicks off and maybe just maybe. x

quick mention that man united win a 19th title in the english premier league . man city win the football association cup . guess all's good in manchester.

so back to the pokers and scoops goings on. hardly touched any mid level stuff really and not played very well in the low stuff i played . really sloppy of me but its hard to take it serious when i see a million runner field. really bad of me but im kinda sure there is a few exits with hands i don't / shouldn't be involved in . il carry on though and try fix the leek of been me. maybe should play more tables and just play properly. often 1 table spakk off if i not in the mood.

taken up a stake on the eurosites playing under paul jackons staking thing on bankroll supply. kind of a strange situation cause i dont need staking for teh games on there . there mostly soft slow structures. maybe played 60/70 mtts now on there and have made a lot of final tables.
been guilty of spakking off at the start been over aggressive but the more i play on there i begun to adapt to the what i see in front of me. playing very exploitable but guess what ??? no one exploits me so i have become a lagtard as soon as i get some reads . kind opposite from my usual adapted style of been a nit. i find nitty makes decisions easy and u can exploit it a lot more vs thinking players.

anyway in the meantime pokerstars has been messing with its 180mans and i keep playing different buy ins it seams every time i sit down. think they got the balance at the moment after a good bit of messing around and it does feel like it works out better for me i think overall. only time will tell.


went out drinking for the first time in a good few weeks last night and it went to my head . was very loud and a lil mean to some donkey who felted me. think i was angry at myself cause i made what i thought was a good call but it turned out he had turned a better hand then ace high into a bluff and i was all did not want to play live pokerz and somehow found myself in a game pissed.


tempted to go to cork this week for the ukipt . never been to ireland and it could be a lot of fun .


been grinding the rail hard online . should probly play more then rail but playin is so frustrating and i get bored so easily. wil try harder to rectify this problem by playin the eurosites when railing. hate teh thought of playin 6hr sessions plus . turbos are so much easier.

on other notes it seams im growing a beard . not that i want one just because i not left the house much i cant be bothered shaving at all .

the running has stopped so need to try get that back on track . my friend had a stay in hospital and i lost motivation on my own . my calfs were giving me a lot of pain running on concrete and running on teh grass suggested by a friend seams to make it a lot easier to recover quicker.

for some reason i keep sleeping 3/4 hours then gettin up for a few hrs then going back to bed. anyway going to end the blog ramblings for today

night/morning laterz zcl