so not gone to vegas. decided ide of flown out to celebrate with mat frankland if he won anything as he showed some faith inmy game last year i would of loved to of been about to celebrate with him. as it happens he came home so i won't be attending this year.
i had a decent may winning some money on a stake on ipoker . fell out with the person whos company it was as he was really been a jerk about stuff after i won over about 6k for the month .
on a personal note i found the ipoker games incred and i will be playin much more on there over the coming months.
i been grinding loads of low stakes but had to have a forced week or so off when my computer needed some much needed maintainance.
so tryin to get some big long grind days in for the next few weeks to try pay for some shots at various mtts.
i found an interesting statistic that im on a 6500 downer at schedules mtt for buy ins between 1 and 50 dollars. its taken a long time to do that in and i hadnt really noticed because it was just a few hundo dollars at a time over sessons. does feel like forever ago since i final tabled an mtt though so
been watching the wsop updates constantly and been watching for peopel i know making deep runs.
two brits who i have spent a lil time with over the last 12 months both won wsop gold so thats really good for them. i dont really know either of them that well more friends of friends but i have enjoyed there company when there about. so wp mat and jake.
its a bit gloomy thinking that everyone is havinga ball in vegas and im stuck at home but tbh i have been really lazy with poker a big part of me feels like i don't deserve to be there.
ive been dropping money like crazy at my local cash game. not really doin too much wrong just dont seam to win a pot whatever i do . im guessing im on maybe 15 to 20 buyins down and it feels like i suck. really probly need to just nit it up win some pots .
deffo need to stop with some of the fucked up stuff ive started leaking at. done a few quid on gambling slots bj etc stuff i shouldnt and its not really enjoyable because its the wrong mindset to really be in (i dont seam to gamble low limits want to do my bollox chasing scores . its just an explosive mindset of been a gambler and yer after doin some today i decided to ship my friend some big uk live poker shots to atleast gamble higher in a positive expectation way..
i know deep down im a gambler but i like to bury that demon and keep him locked up. of late really been feeding the lil bastard .
i know i should blog more but it gets a bit depressing blogging about the same old shit.
really should be moving up stakes and cut out all the bull shit in my life. lifes been going well enjoyin it alot and i enjoy it more when im been involved in new experiences . the excessive drinking and stuff is just to escape sometimes and it takes me too long to recover.
a few friends going to newcastle for the ukipt so i wish them luck. me myself wil be doin what i am often doin smashing low stakes sits to grind it out.
i took a horse on to play sits and he on bit of a downswing so im going to have to give him a few hours on teamviewer make sure he playin correctly so i can get a return on the dollars ive stuck into him.
anyway guys gl with the wsop main any of u guys playin it. i wil be playin the odd satterlite before it kicks off and maybe just maybe. x