So as I've written a couple of times in here now I am pretty unsure of what the year ahead has in store for me.

However, ideas and concepts are starting to take shape.

I can't be sure enough to make actual goals for myself, but I do have some plans.

There are some recurring things I keep thinking about, that I really need to get done.

The most basic and most prominent is one huge flaw of the way my life is set up...

Everything I spend my time doing, draws the respect and admiration of *slightly nerdy males*... and is of very little interest to females...

Now don't get me wrong, playing in a band, as a concept, helps with girls - it doesn't really matter if they hate the music, the mere fact you are in a band is a plus.

Same with having money, it doesn't really matter that poker is of very little interest to most girls - the fact that you are good at something that makes you money is a plus.

I'm not talking about not being able to impress girls.

I'm not even really talking about picking up girls...

Just, the way my life is structured... I meet interesting females almost never.

Pretty much every girl I've had a thing with the past couple of years has been either a friends ex girlfriend or friends relative... which is kinda weird and messed up, but I live in a small city and the scenes that dominate my interests are both almost entirely made up of SLIGHTLY NERDY MALES.

Now I am a slightly nerdy male... and I like, slightly nerdy males... but cmon.

It's absurd to structure your life in such a way that all you are ever meeting or impressing are other slightly nerdy males.

I love girls, in general, I grew up in a house with a single mother and a younger sister...

I really value female friendships, and I have quite a few, but yeah...

This whole dating peoples exes and sisters and **** has got to stop, I gotta get some interests that girls like, god.

I think I really just need to go back and study.

If I died without a degree I would consider my life a failure.

I really wanna do psychology/criminology again.

So yeah, I guess I plan to get the ball rolling again for university this year.

Other stuff... gotta finally get my drivers license...

One that everyone writes in every poker blog ever but still bears repeating...

I GOTTA GET IN SHAPE AND LOSE A FEW KGS...

Seriously though, I wanna step it up and get super fit this year.

And as far as poker goes, well...

Tournaments - I wanna either be ranked in the top 10 in the world at the end of the year, or outside the top 100...

It would be great if I could either ship hardcore and get a couple of six figure scores, or get myself out of the tourney quagmire and back to some nice cash grinding.

Travel... Yeah I wanna travel. I salivate thinking about playing EPTs, I'm already plotting my revenge on WSOP...

But I dunno, when I'm playing music I feel like I should really dedicate this year to music, as in 5-10 years I'm sure I'll still be doing things like hitting up Europe, playing big live poker tournaments etc...

Who knows what I'll be doing musically though?

While I'm young, with good friends who have great songs ready to go and a scene very open to all the stuff we put out it seems like I should stay involved in that for as long as I can...

I don't wanna be 35 and wish I could go back in time and start more bands.

I doubt I'll ever hit 50 and look back and wish I played more poker though.

Especially since you can be just as degenerate at 50, but good luck starting a punk band

Poker wise my main goal is to respect the game as much as I can.

With MTTs coming so easily to me at the start, and with running good while staying in five star hotels, at some point I really stopped respecting the game, fearing variance etc...

I've since had that beaten out of me, but I have always prided myself on respecting the game and maintaining a significant edge at all times by only playing close to my A game.

That's very hard to do playing such long sessions in MTTs, but I definitely play tired too often and it's gotta stop.

Especially falling asleep during a $1600 WCOOP event this year, I mean that's just sick.

There are people begging for change on the streets and I'm falling asleep during a tourney that could feed them for three months...

I don't wanna be that guy.

So, 2009... structure life a little away from solely appealing to dudes, get healthier and stay there, put as much in to and take as much out of music as I can, and when it comes to poker, respect the game.