Well, it's been fun. Nice knowing you all.

Not really, I am taking a week off though.

Heading to Melbourne on Thursday, staying with non-poker friend, and hoping to play no poker whatsoever.

Then after that the Victorian Champs are on, and I will be staying at Crown and playing in some more live tournaments (I guess I am a masochist).

Depending on how that goes I am probably going to head to Macau for the APT/APPTs in consecutive weekends there after that, especially if I can get backing or sell some pieces.

It is tough at the moment. I am constantly getting messages about coaching or my videos and constantly feeling like I *should* be playing - when in reality I am disgusted and depressed about poker and it's the last thing I want to be thinking about or spending time doing.

I don't know when it became tough to take a couple of days off, but somehow, it did.

Maybe I am suffering from a buildup of guilt at squandering so much money on the road, 5 star hotels, room service, paying for two people...

I don't know, but for whatever reason I constantly feel like I *should* be playing poker, though it's very rarely what I actually want to be doing.

So... yeah, you can probably tell by my tone that 2/4 has been going well.

I won 5 buyins the first day of my banishment. Since then I have played 15K hands, and lost money.

I haven't betrayed my pledge though, at all, and I won't.

The games are much tougher. Sometimes it feels like there are 4 of me on each table.

What happened to the 21/13s or even 18/14s?

I am running so bad, too. I tried to make a video earlier. 4-tabled for an hour and lost seven buyins. Seven!

I don't know if you guys have ever made a poker video that you planned to show to other people, but... you tend to be pretty careful with your decisions and with not tilting, because you're going to have to explain everything... so seven buyins was pretty gross.

I listened back to the recording afterwards and it was so sad hearing my chirpy voice at the start.

"Hi, this is SEABEAST, and this is my latest video for Leggo Poker. Today I'm gonna be playing some $2/4 on Party, should be fun I think!"