Gonna start off with the cliff notes here: I have decided to delete this blog and officially stop making videos.
It has obviously already been a while since I made a video, and I haven't coached for a long time, but over the last few weeks I decided for sure to officially step away from the site.
It has nothing to do with Leggo or anything like that, I have loved being a part of the site and it's something I'm extremely proud of (I still remember how incredibly nervous I was before making my first video!) plus I've come in contact with some great people and some incredible minds thanks to the experience.
It's just that, as anyone who knows me or has followed my blog at all is probably already aware, I have yearned to move away from having poker as my first priority in life for quite a long time now, and retiring from Leggo is one of the steps for me.
A big part of it, without wanting to sound pretentious, is letting go of having a public image.
It's strange how that stuff can affect you and affect your goals, and make you feel like you have to keep proving over and over 'how good you are'.
Anyone who has ever been involved in any sort of competitive gaming will realise that this is something that never really ends, no matter what goal you reach there's a new one, no matter how much you've already achieved there's the threat that you might fall behind the curve sometime soon if you don't keep working...
Even just something small like writing in a blog about results or goals affects and puts pressure on you, I think it's something a lot of people are guilty of in different ways in the internet age (like say on Facebook where people sometimes do things to some degree so they can status update them or post photos later... it's kind of the same thing).
I also took making videos pretty seriously and only ever wanted to make them if I felt I was ahead of the curve enough to justify having the right to instruct.
It's that stuff that I'm letting go of, I really just wanna feel like random civilian, go to uni play some music on the side play some poker on the side - whatever.
I am going to Aussie Millions in a couple of weeks and I'll definitely be around the place at some events in Australia and online here and there (hopefully luckboxing) but it's just a priority/pressure related thing for me.
So yeah it's been great, extra special thanks to Greg/Matt/Aaron for always being encouraging and complimentary, and honestly I have the deepest respect for every one of the video producers...
I'll see you all at the tables and stuff.
Farewell!
