I was at the point where money meant nothing to me. I had everything what I can buy with money. So poker wasn't importent for me anymore and I traveled the world and partied a lot. Maybe you know this feeling when you are thinking you are missing something and just wanna go away and see the world. Long story short I had a really good journey and experienced a lot. I had a lot time to think about a bunch of stuff. Back in Germany I gone to university. Still money wasn't important for me and I startet studying because I think it's a great time you shouldn't miss. I'm very happy with my decision and my life now. I have a bunch of stuff to do every day like sports, friends, reading, studying and I try to visit my really good friends regularly who are living in different cities all over germany now.
Still I felt that something is missing, the feeling that I do something productive for my life. I always talked to my self like that I have enough money and can be productive with something else again later because life is long. Now I came to the conclusion that I wanna play poker again when I have time for it. I although need the feeling that I am a winner I guess( I know in poker obv. in the long run) because I'm not doing any other contests or stuff where I proof that I am very good in it.
I'm not shure if someone is reading this but it's alright beause I'm doing it more for myself to structure my life a little bit more. Furthermore I will write paramount about my thoughts and feelings about life.
I appreciate comments. maybe someone has similiar expeariances. advices or other thought are always welcome because I think that it's very important to think about everything from different perspectives.
Edit: up 1k after my first session.