So i started the day out really well and i basically grinded the majority of last night after my blog and today so i put in about 7000 hands in 2 days 4-6 tabling. At the end of today i ran into a fish whos like -10k at 6max and for some reason the table broke and we ended up playing hu i dropped about 100$ on a cooler to him and i tried to bluff him in a really great spot and he ended up calling and running like god. Ended vs him -300$ i quit the session though cuz i was tilted as hell cuz he was a complete monkey but i just couldnt go on. A little anoyyed i tilted a little but glad i quit due to tilt vs a fish for the first time ever.... so stats for today/yesterday

Leaks i found today that i am going to add to my list to work on is obv tilting vs a fish because of "entitlement" feeling. And in another spot today i called down with a marginal hand vs a regular in a spot where his raise was representing a none balancable range on that board. Like he basically can't have a balanced checking range if he is raising in this situation. I asumed that his raise must be a bluff range since its 100% more +Ev for him to flat his entire range so i thought his range was really weird. But what i need to work on is not asuming ppl know how to play their hands and just waiting till i have notes/evidence before i make a marginal hero call. In the end after reviewing i realized his ranges OBV were not balanced( what a suprise? R u suprised?? am i??? noooo) and so now if that guy flats me on that texture he is basically omega fucked but i mean the amount of time for me to get that EV back after stacking off is likeeeeeeeee forever because that situation doesnt come up that often and id have to find him again.... so i cant make big mistakes like that again.

Thats about it super tired going to run then get my head straight for tomorrows grind. Goal is make 2.5k before taking a shot at 400nl. Hopefully before next thur so i can table select friday night for my shot. One time pleaseeeeeeeeeeee.

So this is the first day I'm back playing after studying and establishing that i had a ego problem, and i am not studying enough.

Today i went out to asian food and got a fortune cookie that said " You will find something that you have been looking for today." And i feel like i have found my work ethic and ambition to move up.

I was proud of myself today... even though i won today i reviewed every hand in my session for 1-2 hours today. I found a few issues with my game that i am going to consciously work on for this week. First of all i think i wasn't considering all options with marginal value oop, so by not considering some things that leads to not always choosing the most +EV choice. And on my delay cbets in position i saw a leak where I wasn't properly mapping out the risk reward of their range splitting on the turn vs cbetting the flop and getting improved equity and "shutting them down". So i think this will make me a lot more deliberate and less random with my checking bet freq. Last general thing is i found a leak where i cbet even though giving up the initiative and c/r might be better.... I am going to explore textures where its more +EV to c/r with a balanced value range even with the cbet lead vs some players. Thats about it will be working hard all this week and hopefully all goes well.

glgl

So i haven't blogged in a while because recently i been just tilting so much that no matter how much theory or concepts i go over. It didnt matter I was going to break even. I would spew like 200$ every session on like random crazy shoves and i feel like I'm still not past that completely but I'm rereading things on tilt control and stuff.



So like what really pops out at me in this picture is that i won ev adjusted at 1ptbb for my most recent 6max sample. In terms of my ability while playing these hands I feel if i played my b+ game 90%+ of the time id have a 3ptbb win rate. And so i owned myself because i could have won 15k in ev and been +8k but instead i let it get to me and played like shit. What i been trying to do recently is not send hands to ppl that are bad beats. I do however talk about tilting in general. Thats more so because i'm trying to actively figure out a way to fix my underlying issues. So far only one thing has helped a lot and its just taking 10 seconds per decision regardless of whether i think its a simple choice. But i guess summary is i played 176 hours of 6max, got owned because i am a spewtard.

So i was in tilt rage mode for about a 1 month culminating in me playing matt hu and tc heads up where i played like total shit. Then i took a day off and reviewed it and realized I'm a complete moron. I PLAY LIKE SHIT nd i don't listen to myself/others. I analyzed my match vs tc for hours. Then challenged him hu again, i had a write up of how i thought he would start out the match based on our previous match. I fixed a lot of spots i made mistakes last time. Next i wrote down how I thought he would adjust to how i changed my game and then i just did a balanced strategy from there. I started off winning and i felt like playing super well when i ran out of preplanned adjustments he started chipping me away and i ended up 9$(I WON lol i like never win). I then looked over the match and tc said it best to me " i felt like today i was playing a completely different player. I'm really impressed." vs 2 days before (PG version) "Are you serious??? Your such a spewtard." This whole cycle showed me that i need to work harder on my game and execute during play like an anal accountant. I had a Laissez-faire attitude where i would make -ev plays because of "flow" and "what i felt like doing"(emotion). Which is terrible cuz playing like that just causes tilt. I think i got like that cuz i felt like i deserved to win because of ego and really i'm lucky to not have lost more in this downswing. In the end i won a little with rb and wasted 176 hours of my life...................


So getting back on track today i had 4 hours of poker lessons with 2 different ppl and reviewed each lesson for a few hours and played 3 hours today and won at rly good rate. Basically i just studied, played and ate sushi and slept. I am going to try to focus on maintaining a high ev win rate(5ptbb+) and ignoring everything else and just trying to make each 50k hands higher win rate than the last. So ill try to keep progress on my blog of my next 50k hands as i go... Thats about it ttyl and gllllllllllllllllllllll

So i played 20,000 hands today to unlock the instant 1k sept bonus on stars. I ended up breakingeven(rb proooooo) cuz i spewed 1.2k at the very start forgetting that 9max is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nittty sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nitty. I was raising too much when trying to get value and calling down too light. I adjusted my ranges a bit to fit in better vs what each reg was doing and won my 1.2k back about 8 hours in. Then for about 10 hours i broke even just getting fpp cuz i didnt sleep or eat for my 17 hour session. I just wanted to know how it felt to be a RB pro and let me tell you it sucks now i know why they all get so pisst in chat. I even snapped at one dude right before i quit. I was LOL pisst( thats like the first time i felt emotion in chat, all the other times i just pretend). And to think that is their life everyday. And most those guys are like completely break even. I mean i guess if i started at the begining of the year and played 5 hours a day it wouldnt be that bad. But then again their swings must be massive when their winrate is 0bb/100 so they have like a 20k swing at 200nl every few months. That would be really really anoyying i would think. I think though today i made about 1.7k in mistakes which if i played again tomorrow would be fixed. o well fuck that gameeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Time to go back to 4 tabling 6max =D.

So this 3-weekend i spent about 20 hours training my brother and his close friend about poker. They both really want to travel so are trying to figure out a way to make $ and travel at the same time which in the end involves poker/learning from me. So far its going well and they both have good potential so i guess we will see where it goes.

In terms of poker for me I'm having a pretty brutal ev downswing. The last month and a week i am up only a few 100$ now. I was up substantially and had 2 sessions at 200 where i was -2k but ev adjusted was up a few 100. So i guess total now at 6max i have like a 10k difference in ev for the last 100k hands. That being said my winrate ev adjusted is really bad so either i was letting it get to me(tilt) or i am just not good at 6max in general. I think its probably a combination of being rusty/bad at 6max and tilting a little. Like just small changes in play when i am losing a lot. Either way all said and done i am up with RB so at least I'm not spewing rolls on this downswing. I am obv not happy with my results recently but its not all that bad i just need to play more hands and study more to let it even out eventually.

So just a fast summary of life stuff... haven't lost anymore weight. I did find my itouch which i lost for a year. I lost it a week after i bought it so woot I'm updating it so i can get all those fancy apps they added now. Then the stock market is up a bunch so my acct hit a new high. I also made a new retirement account where i have been putting 3k into each month from my checkings. I been doing this because if i don't i end up spending allllll of my money cuz its just sitting there. I'll make up things that i want... segregating money helped a lot to make me stop spewing. After i started playing 6max again on my laptop i realized its too small(13") lol. For hu its really nice because the mouse pad is awesome and it sits on my lap easily and FR any laptop is too small. But knowing what i know now i would've just got a 17" mbp(8 hour battery) and the day i bought it brought it to the genius bar and make sure everything in windows and osx with vmw was working. The 15" dell i had was shit battery life like 2 hours with hem and pokering and the screen tilted me. But ya i plan on giving the 2 laptops to my mom and dad near dec time frame. Then like jan 1st getting a 17" mbp so i can tax write it off against next years income.

I got a new mouse because my logitech g7 died after 2 years of use. I ended up getting a razer mamba which is great if you use the claw style of holding a mouse. Also if you have smaller hands it fits better on the palm than the logitech g7. Also no more swapping batteries it charges with a connector that makes it a wired mouse for a short time. But ya i love it if anyones getting a mouse I'd really recommend it or the death adder if you want a wired version.

Thats it gl gl gl g lglglglglglg!~

Its going alright grinded up from 50nl to 200nl in a week. Now I'm just working on winning 4k-5k at 200nl so i can keep moving up. At 200nl so far though i feel like i been making too many fancy dumb plays and in the long run I'd prob save 3ptbb or more by not making them. I understand ranges a bit more at the 6..... so I've loosened up a bit cuz i'm not as scared anymore i just need to loosen up not like a retard.

I lost 2 more pounds! And i saw the doctor again... he gave me 3 medicines but also said some good news which was that i should be fine in 2 weeks- 1 month now. So that is great, i already feel really good. I am still keeping my diet and what not but the first thing i'm going to do once i stop medicine in 2 weeks to a month is go to Alexanders and get mash potatoes and a steak. Then the next day I'm going to cold stones and probably split one of their ice creams 3 ways since i cant eat as much anymore. I want the chocolate delight i think it is? Brownies, vanilla ice cream and fudge *drool*. I wonder if my body can handle sugar after having 0 sugar for 2 months... i should probably take it easy and have like 5 bites.

Thats about it feels good starting over and just aggressively "taking shots" so GL me... LETS DO THIS.

Gl at the tables.

Basically i felt like super shit since i got home then i cleaned my room and dusted the entire house my mom thinks i am insane like those clean/germ freak wtf ppl and she thinks im crazy cuz i'm so lazy and have never done anything in the house but, i was requested everything be dusted. My annoying infection makes me sensitive to dustmites. LONG STORY SHORT today is the first day with no dust and i have no headache for the first time in 2 weeks. SUCK IT DUSTMITES. VICTORY IS MINE.

In terms of poker i 2 tables the HU 100nl games on stars/ftp won 5k at 16ptbb and now when i sit it takes me 30 mins to get a game cuz i guess all the regs know me now. And if i join tables ppl sit out. So hu is gay fuck that game. I could move up but it seems like there are SOOOO many bumhunters none of the regs play any other regs fuckers. They are so homo. So i didn't want to go back to FR its sooooooooooooooooooooooo slow and boring and since i been feeling better no headaches and my healthy diet i want to stimulate thinking so i went to 6max.

So i started at 50nl 6max won there at 15ptbb crushed some ppls. Then went to 100nl and got bored so i deposited more money(2k) instead of having to build the roll up to 200nl level. And for my first session 0uxxxxx(dunno if hes secretive about his name) sweat me and really helped me feel confident and clarified stuff for me from FR going to 6max which was a big help! TY TY. Then i sweat tc in a tourney and 10/20 and we had like a hour chat about just straight theory and it just opened my mind to a lot. Poker makes sense on a whole new few levels now. Like i am considering way more stuff when playing and i don't even use my hud anymore. FUCK MY HUD ITS JUST A CRUTCH. Its surprising how just a few paragraphs can change my overall strat and how i come to decisions in all hands and make me way more profitable. So far i made 10 bi at 10ptbb but i just feel way more comfortable and have a better understanding of what i need to look for when reviewing and changing my game.

Outside of theory things that helped my game a bunch for hu and 6max.
HEADPHONES (keeps all outside things out of my thoughts. I got the bose ones i cant hear shit)
NO FUCKING DUST
Turn off second monitor once tables are set up. ( makes it hard to browse or watch shit or check hem during session. also even if i don't have shit on it the light from it makes me look away sometimes and my focus is broken.)
Not caring what my cashier or hem says, i rly dont care or know if im winning or losing during sessions. Endless I'm getting straight raped like the -2.5k day i knew something might be going on lol.
The max amount of tables i play is 5 at 6max and 1-2 at hu.
Be creative in every hand nothing is std and if it is it prob creates a 1-3ptbb win rate. (i remebered for example MIN RAISES ARE FUN. hahahaha and right sometimes. matts going to shake his head when he reads this. lol)
No HUD
eat healthy.
workout everyday

I know sample is small but i just feel good about my play more so than ever before.

Lucky song of the day for cash whenever i played this i won a buyin best part is at 6:00 a fobby i think asian girl who has an accent goes "SUPERMAN SUPER SUPER MAN BLAH BLAH BLAH, makes me laugh every time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5y03pz9M4Os

TTYL GL AT TABLES

So i went i got back from hawaii like 3 days ago. Had a great time. The big things i did there was go to waikiki beach, swim with 12 foot sharks in a cage about 3 miles off shore in the ocean, went clubbing with girls we met in the hotel hottub, hiked to a 40 foot waterfall and went to the middle mountain with a view where you could see basically the whole island. Overall i had a lot of fun. My flight got delayed like 24 hours so i got a extra day there =) and like the hotel the airline paid for me was super nice king bed!! But ya i loved it sitting on the balcony in hawaii and one tabing low stakes drinking tea in the mornings. I made like 700 one tabling the 100nl games which basically paid for my trip ship it..

But ya so i got home and played 16,000 hands the second day i came back in a 10 hour straight session. I ran probably the worest i have ever run i got a lotttt of sets and lost every single one. Then ran about 1.6k under ev in flips and random stuff total damage was 2.5k. I got 500 in rb though =D haha. I wasn't sad at all because i didn't really make any mistakes also i made like 40+ bi in a row with like no variance so o well. But ya i havent really been getting emotional about it but i did realize when i was thinking about grinding FR again after hawaii and it just anoyyed me, i can't do it again. Even 400nl fr seems pointless my hourly will be like $110-$150 and i wont get better that fast cuz i calculated it out and i get like 4 hands past the flop every 100 hands cuz i play like 16vpip now and ppl fold to cbet about 60% on average. And getting past the flop when i dont have a strong hand that plays itself and or instant muck hand is even more rare. So the new situations and or time to learn new things is rly low per session. Not to mention having to multitable 12+ to get my hourly that high so im really not learning. I guess i was happy making that $ before the trip but i really just want to get better at this point and my whole trip i been thinking in my head what and how i been playing bad and just replaying the last year in my head. Basically my game isnt much better than it was a year ago i'm playing the same games and havent really tryed at all to get better. However in this year i have seen so many things and talked to so many players that i know exactly what i need to do to move up and i know all the "theory" and math but am too lazy to implement any of it cuz i was satisified. So long story short i am changing my plans....

I am now playing 1-2 table at 100nl and reviewing all the hands i play. So far at 100nl i'm up 4.5k at 15ptbb which intresting enough i checked and it is 90$ a hour thats the same as 12 tabling 200nl fr at 2.5ptbb but i am getting better so fast i can feel it. Either way i read matts blog about focusing on getting better rather than $ in general and wats funny is i thought of that in hawaii and have also started on that trend as well. When i focus on getting better the $ just works itself out nd its not like i need $ for anything at this point. So ya thats about it goal get better. Once i make 1.5k more i'm going to move up to 200nl wish me luck!!!!

Oh also i been working out at the gym everyday and eating super omega healthy and lost 15 pounds since vegas. I'm trying to lose 10 more pounds and get a lot stronger with my cardio and weights so i can be healthy. Eating healthy has really opened up my mind and i can make better decisions i am really glad that i am working on all of this.

Thats it!!!!!! Gl everyone and ttyl

So i played 15 tables of cash today bad idea... lol lost 900 but i was set over settled 4 times got in overpair vs donk who has ace high and obv reg overcalls behind with a set. So std variance. I decided to just chill play 2 lowstakes tourneys a 25$ and a 77$ entry.....went super deep in both cashed about 1.3k combined. so +400 on the day woot =). Mtts are so easy to play properly they are just so hard to continue to play when variance hits u cuz they are mega gay.

I am still super sick but have figured out what sickness i have now. It is ridiculous because thats good news and bad cuz it will take me months to heal. And i think I've had it for a few years now and looking back it has really effected my social life negatively. But it all makes sense because i got a lot of infections like on my eye super easy and it was caused by the other sickness...... Dont rly wanna go into it more other than i feel super super sick atm cuz im on lots of medicine. I will be fine no worries just kinda venting on my blog... moving on

I wont let it bother me because i am leaving for hawaii tomorrow and will be back in a week then I'm going to destroy this thing for a few months then ill be able to make it on some other trips and not leave early or be tired all the time. Cya all!


Oh ya this song everytime i played it during the MTT i won a huge pot!!! gogo lucky song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prCZvA6g2Qc

So i went to a local casino and i wasn't going to play but decided to cuz all my friends were ...it was a 1/2/3 game with a 5$ rake on any pot. So like a 9$ pot = 5$ rake so u win 4$ for a net profit of 1$ lol! Risking 3$ to win 4$ meaning u have to win the pot vs 3 people is lol. Everyone was playing like 40bb deep and were pretty tight. It was funny i ended up losing 200, and most of my stack vs my friend. Cuz i was going to shove either way and i thought might as well vs him. Then after he won he wanted to give the money back which was interesting but i gave it to him so didn't rly want it back. It was the worse experience I've had playing poker and with that rake its not beatable without everyone having 100bb stacks. BUT! it really made me want to play online poker because looking in the eyes of everyone at the table just made me realize these are the ppl i am playing online, with low rake, deeper stacks, i can sit on 15 tables and 5x hands per hour per table. What i saw behind their eyes was interesting because there was................. nothing!! They are like zombies stuck in something they don't understand at all but they think "tonight i could win!" I mean other ppl tell me its depressing going to a casino i just find it energizing because poker will never end i just saw 100 donks in 1 room today!!!!!!!!!!!!


Tomorrows thurs and i rly wanna clean my room and eat healthy again. I stopped when i got fucked up last weekend. And i'm going to try to make $5000 in 2 days thur and friday. Then sat i can drink a bit and relax a lot. We will prob be in sf this weekend again so i need to put in a lot of work cuz i fly out to honolulu on mon nd i need $! That is all good nightttttttt gl at tables