$0.5/$1 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com

Stacks:
UTG ($78.00)
UTG 1 ($103.10)
Hero ($100.00)
BTN ($111.00)
SB ($154.50)
BB ($207.05)

Pre-flop: ($1.50, 6 players) Hero is CO K K
1 fold, UTG 1 raises to $4, Hero calls $4, 1 fold, SB calls $3.50, 1 fold

Flop: K 9 2 ($13, 3 players)
SB checks, UTG 1 bets $10, Hero calls $10, SB folds

Turn: A ($33, 2 players)
UTG 1 bets $28, Hero raises to $86, UTG 1 calls $58

River: 7 ($205, 2 players)

Final Pot: $205
UTG 1 shows: A A

UTG 1 wins $202 ( won $102 )
Hero lost -$100.00
SB lost -$4.00


$0.5/$1 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com

Stacks:
UTG ($97.00)
UTG 1 ($92.85)
CO ($98.50)
BTN ($104.60)
SB ($105.40)
Hero ($111.00)

Pre-flop: ($1.50, 6 players) Hero is BB A K
4 folds, SB raises to $3, Hero raises to $10, SB raises to $29, Hero raises to $111, SB calls $76.40

Flop: Q T 5 ($216.40, 2 players)

Turn: 8 ($216.40, 2 players)

River: 2 ($216.40, 2 players)

Final Pot: $216.40
SB shows: 7 7

SB wins $207.80 ( won $102.40 )
Hero wins $5.60 ( lost -$105.40 )


Both hands happened within few minutes vs the same villian. I had to quit my session, but not before I monkeyed off another stack. Obv I have a tilt problem and thats whats blocking my progress for the most part.

Today I went for a walk, listening to the notwist. I came to realize, that its not the beat themsalves whats phasing me, it´s more complicated. I can handle the occassional two outer, not a big deal when I´m losing a couple of flips in a row. I mean, I´ve been running awful lately, but I´m smart enough to see where I´m running bad and where I´m playing bad, but until today I couldnt exactly identify whats pulling the trigger to put me on tilt. It´s not the beat, it´s the person beating me. OMG it´s the people.

Looking back at last night and the hands.

#1: Sucks to be me, but whatever. Maybe I´ll never play him again, but if I dont I´m gonna put a two outer on another guy one day.
#2: Actually I´m really happy with this hand. His equity sucks balls vs my range here and he didnt win any money off me. He won a pot and made a huge mistake.

Wheres my problem? Hard to explain, but I´ll try to write it down:

That guy is a bad player over whom I figure to have an edge. He took 2 buy ins off me. Sometimes my fried brain decides to imagine how that guy feels like he´s way better than me, now that he took my money. I can´t stand that, I´m not used to people making fun of me. I want to be better than everyone else at my tables (we all do) but I want everyone else to know that (good players dont do that). I am aware that there are a million players around better than me and its not a big deal if they actually ARE better. Guys who are not better but feel and act as if they was make me really mad.

For the next 10k hands I´m gonna set up my hud that way, that I cant see my opponents screennames and take the names out of the HM hud and see how it turns out.

Of course, this is probably some stupid drunk thought and you´re ahsking your head now. I´m gonna get back to this when I´m sober tomorrow.